darkness. thats all i saw. i was ingulfed in the black thick atmosphere. i couldnt breathe, but that didnt matter. even if people did care that i died it would be fine. i would just be dead as i drifted through the emptiness. it felt bad but good at the same time. like, somber happines, i\was sad to die but i was free. free from our shitty society, the steriotypes, people, dad, mom, divorce, school, polotics, and anxiety. why? i'm just a fucking kid. do i deserve to worry about this?, do i deserve the steriyotypes? why are people so harsh on kids? they sexualize kids like "awww do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend??" but educating the children of sex and homosexuality is encouraging them to be bad? and what is with cussing? they were created for a reason. adults can say it. why not kids? as i came back to counciousness i felt the tears on my cheeks, heard the birds chirping, saw the room and my room view. tasted weird morning breath. it was soothing. i was here. just here in the moment. no thoughts, feelings, just peace. no worry of school, no mom or dad yelling, just here. i regained my thoughts coming out of that state and sitting up. its time.
