Story Of My Life

Chapter 11

After crying for the whole night and  barely getting a sleep , I woke up , freshen up myself and got ready to go and meet my family. I just pray to God that today will be better. After getting ready, I went out to meet my family.
After half an hour , I stood there , infront of the door that i once used to call my home. I was in confusion whether to enter or not , i was nervous, scared and mix of all emotions, but moreover I'm scared that i might not meet my expectations again. While having all those thoughts inside my mind , someone just talk to me , awaking me up from my thoughts.

Hello excuse me , who are you ? - ???

Hello , aa-ah I'm looking for -r , when I turn around to asked the person but I was shocked when the person was my mother, my own mother who I have not meet in the last 6-7 years. I nearly cried when I saw her but I was controlling myself.

Phu-Phuwin , is that you ? , My mother ask me and i nearly lost it.

I'm sorry, i should go , I said as I try to went away but my mother stop me,

Mother : Please Phu , my son please don't go ,

Phuwin : when my mother called me his son I lost my cool and started crying.

Mother : please Phu stay for a minute, I know you probably hate us now but please let's have a talk.

Phuwin : I don't hate you mom, I'm just -

Mother : come inside Phu , atleast have a cup of tea before you go.

Phuwin : hmmm

As i enter my old house everything was probably still the same , like literally everything, I wonder if my room is still there or they already used it as a storage.
I scan around the sitting room and I saw my dad photo hanging on the wall where we hang the picture of my grandparents who already left us.
I was hoping it's not what I think and with that my mother came back with a cup of tea in both her hand. She saw me looking at my dad's photo and said that ,
It's been 2 years since your father left us. Phu , my mom told me and I just could not believe it , it's been two years and I didn't even know about it. I was so mad at myself. And i think my mom understand what I was thinking; don't blame yourself Phu for not knowing, it was because of us only. It was our fault that you lost a family, it's was our fault for not giving you a chance , please Phu forgive us my mother said while crying and I just couldn't hold myself and hug her. I know that I hate what they did to me but at the end they still are my family, I can't just turn a blind eyes to them , especially when my mother is crying infront of me.
Mom please don't cry and stop blaming yourself. I already forgive you guys a long time ago.

After a long minute of cry and talking things out , I ask my mom what happened to my dad.,
Well son , one year after you left , we found out that your dad was suffering from cancer. We went to different different hospital, searching for the best equipment that could heal your dad , at first we thought we got it and they heal your dad cause for 2 years your dad was getting better but then suddenly he got serious sick and this time h-he ,
I hug my mother again and apologize to her as I was not there to be with them in their worst time.

Don't apologise Phu , it was not your fault for not being here , it was us , we push you away , we kick out our own son from our house. Even after knowing that the Natachai Boonprasert family took you in , we still did not bother to check up on you. Only after knowing that you all left for Bangkok , that's when only it hit me and your dad that we might never see you again.
But after a long time i finally saw you again and I'm very happy, you have grown up to be a very handsome man my son , I wish I was there to see you growing up. My son , I'm so sorry again ; my mother keeps on apologising even though I told her I already forgive her and I can't help but feel guilty about it.