here with me | minsung

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the drive to the cemetery was very silent, except for the occasional sniffles coming from jisung. minho's hand was softly rested on jisung's knee, using the other hand to drive. spits of rain tapped on the window as they pulled up to the cemetery, a tear rolling down jisung's face.

"do you want to go in alone?", minho asked softly. jisung gulped, shuffling with his jacket awkwardly. minho placed a hand on jisung's shoulder, waiting for answer. he sighed.

"it won't hurt my feelings.", minho comforted.

"yes please.", jisung sighed. his breath steadied, trying to calm himself down.

"please note, i will come in back VERY upset. please do not talk to me the whole ride back. i'll still be processing.", jisung instructed. minho nodded in response, kissing jisung's forehead softly.

"okay. now, go in there. i'm sure your brother will be happy to see you.", minho smiled. jisung nodded, opening the car door and getting out. he gulped, shutting the door.

minho watched jisung walk into the cemetery, taking small baby steps and shaking heavily. minho sighed, taking out his diary from the bag in his backseat. he picked up his pen and starting writing, thinking about the small boy.

~

dear diary,

i am now very sure that jisung is my soulmate. the way his eyes light up when he's excited, the way he blushes when i compliment him. he's beautiful, and i think he's feeling the exact same way. <3

he opened up to me about an hour ago, it was really emotional. he had a brother that passed away apparently, which is really sad. he was there for jisung in the darkest of times. then he just,... disappeared into thin air. i wish to be the person he trusts, the person he turns to when he's feeling down. because it hurts him if he doesn't open up.

but, anyways, he's my soulmate. i know that for sure. he's currently talking to his brother in the cemetery while i write about him. i think i'm going to ask him to be my bf <3

- lee minho

~

jisung stepped up to his brothers grave, sitting down cross-legged. he sighed, more tears rolling down his chubby cheeks. he threw the flower he was holding onto the headstone, gulping as he began to speak to his brother.

"it's been a lot of long painful years without you, bro. you were my reason to get out of bed every morning, even i knew painful bashings were coming my way the second i stepped out of my bedroom door. i would've caught you when you fell, but i didn't have the chance to. i have a lot of painful regret, because i know i could've prevented it somehow. but i was too scared. too scared to crawl out of my hole, and i hope you forgive me.

"i love you man, more than you could ever know. but i want to talk to you about something. a boy named minho. he's very cute, and i think he's my soulmate. i hope we grow old together, live a full happy life as the clock ticks and tocks. dad stabbed me and i will never forgive him for that. but, it somehow brought me and minho together. i like that about us. we become together in the weirdest of circumstances.

"i should probably get going, b-but i'm sure i'll see you soon again s-someti-ime...", jisung saluted. he softly cried in the moonlight, his tears illuminated by it. he got up, walking out of the cemetery and opened the car door. he hopped into the car, buckling his seatbelt. he sighed as he felt a hand placed on his shoulder. he smiled softly, staring out the car window.

thank you hyung, for being here with me.

you're really sweet, and i hope we be together for the rest of our lives.

😭

how am i now crying at my own writing?