just say when (sweet pea)

it's okay I promise

The next day I wake up to sweet pea sitting in the corner of my room I almost screamed but he ran over and covered my mouth "you fucking stalker I swear imma end up killing you one day" I say "you wish princess"he says with a smirk then there's a knock at the door "just a second"I yell then I push sweet pea into the closet he shuts the door then I get back in bed as if nothing happened"come in" I yell my mom comes in and shuts the door "hey honey" she says sitting on the end of the bed "hey mom" I say "so we have some news on grandpa Porter"she said "mama no I don't wanna know not right now I'm trying to focus on me"I say "you need to know he passed" she says my eyes fill with tears "no" I say "why are you even still here sweetie you had school today"she says "I don't feel good can you please just go" I say "fine but you can at least start to try around here get a job or smth"she said I looked at her like she had just killed my cat in cold blood "I said out before I start something you can't finish" I say she flips me off and walks out as soon as the door shut I throw my candle at the door......it broke but I didn't care tears came from my eyes sweet pea came out I open my bottom drawer and grab my wine the only thing I had and I honestly loved it "wellllllllllllllllllllll life is pointless and my family is ending so celebrating is called upon"I say "no put it down" he says "no thank you"I say choking back the tears "listen your upset I know but you don't need that" he says "I'm not upset"I say shaking my head sweet pea takes the bottle "if ur not upset then you definitely don't need this"he says "please just give it back"I say sweet pea puts the bottle on the dresser and sits beside me "calm down"he says I look in his eyes all I could think about was my grandpa when my mom and dad would have smth going on I would go over there and we would just have fun all day and most of the night he didn't care that I had a bed time he was there when I needed it even when he was sick or busy I was his main priority I now wasn't strong enough to hold back the tears I just let them fall sweet pea pulled me into a hug I was weak at the moment and usually I would hide it but not with sweet pea he had cried around me and I had cried around him his hand gently ran up and down my back "it's okay I'm here" he says his words were comforting but I couldn't stop crying sweet pea pulls away gets up and locks the door then comes back over and lays down "come on" he says with open arms I lay next to him with my head in the crook of his neck he wraps his arms tightly around me "your gunna be alright"he says I nod a bit eventually I fall and so does sweet pea I woke up about an hour later I was turned on my side with sweet pea behind me his strong arms still wrapped tightly around my waist I stayed like that not wanted to wake him until I got a text I checked and it was from Toni

Toni:skipping school now?
Me:sorry yeah I meant to tell you last night Im just not feeling good
Toni:mhm of course you aren't
Me: aren't you at school?
Toni:yep and the guilies have been looking for you all day
Me:haha missed again I ain't letting that happen they are literally never gunna get to me
Toni:not with us by your side speaking of when are you gonna become a full serpent
Me:idk but don't tell anyone I'm even thinking about it fangs and sweet pea would stop that immediately 
Toni:yeah I got you anyway I gotta go I'm heading to Mr ferrets class
Me:hehe have fun

Mr ferret was what we called mr Williams bc he was an asshole who was as tall as slender man himself with a squicky voice I giggle to myself a bit "what's so funny?" Sweet pea Said in a sleepy voice I hadn't even noticed he was awake "Mr ferret" I Said with a smirk he chuckled a bit "how do you feel?"he asks I turn twords him "I'm not over it I mean I don't think Ill ever be you can't just get over smth like that he's gone and I can't change it nor could I have stopped it but that doesn't mean it doesn't hurt like a lot"I say "yeah I get that"he said there was a pause before he chose to speak again "but it's okay I promise it's normal to feel this way you have all rights to be upset"he says I nod a bit we make eyes contact and it lasts a while but I break it "I need a shower"I say "not today you had one last night that can damage your hair" he says sweet pea was a huge softie around me he acted tuff around anyone else but with me he was different he showed he cared he was there for me and I was there for him we both new that I've known him longer than anyone in my life right now 16 years all I knew is that I loved him and I couldn't lose him I was sure I wasn't going to tho not after all this time it's been to long to let go now

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