Hidden feelings •J. Avery•

𝟭𝟱. 𝗧𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗮𝗽𝗶𝘀𝘁𝘀 𝗮𝗻𝗱 𝗰𝗹𝗲𝗮𝗿𝗲𝗱 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝘀𝘂𝗿𝗴𝗲𝗿𝘆 {𝗦𝗵𝗼𝗰𝗸 𝘁𝗼 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘀𝘆𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗺}

Elle sat in the room as she looked to the therapist. She was meant to be cleared for surgery but she didn't want to open up over this

"I don't know what you want me to say" Elle asked

"Tell me how you feel. You lost a baby protecting your sister. She had her baby and you lost yours" the therapist said as Elle rolled her eyes

"I'm aware of what happened I went through it. I didn't know you were there too. What are you worried I'm going to kidnap my niece and go off of the rails" Elle asked

"I want to know how you feel over it. It's a big loss" he said

"I'm aware my body went through it. I lost a baby I Didn't know I was pregnant and I lost my baby and it was heartbreaking. The feeling i had but I am getting through it and being reminded of the pain of being shot as I protected my sister as she was in labour is not something I want to be reminded over. It's too hard" Elle said

"How do you plan on moving forward. Burying it and then snapping. It's unhealthy" he said as she rolled her eyes

"It's how us greys deal with it. It's our normal. I talked to Jackson. I told my sister. I am not wanting to talk over it, I am dealing with it sort of. I'm getting there I'm not a danger. Can you clear me for surgery or not?" Elle asked

"I don't think so" he said as she groaned

"This is a waste of time" Elle said as she stood up and stormed out of the room

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Elle walked into the locker room ranting to herself as she walked over to where Jackson was. He looked to her and frowned as she looked to his girlfriend

"What's going on who pissed you off" he asked as he stood in front of her changing and raised an eyebrow at her

"Stupid therapist. Wants me to talk over how I lost our baby. I am talking over it I just don't feel like talking over with him so he won't clear my name I'm sure he thinks I am going to kidnap Aurora or something" she said as she saw how half of the residents were looking at her and frowned

"When is the staring gonna stop?" Elle asked annoyed as she stood up. Jackson grabbed her waist and pulled her to him

"As soon as the novelty wears off. Just ignore them." He said as he kissed her head

"The novelty of what getting shot and loosing your baby as you jump in front of your twin sister" Elle asked

"Yeah you do realise that was incredibly stupid to do" Jackson said

Elle turned to face them and sighed "what are you all looking at. Is it entertaining to look at the girl who was shot and lost her baby. Why don't you do something other the whispering and point at Me" Elle yelled

"Why don't you go and gawk at yourselves. Are you okay?" Meredith asked as she appeared behind Elle. Elle said nothing as Meredith hugged her. She knew that her sister was struggling

"I just wish that people would leave me alone" she said as Jackson pulled her from Meredith and wrapped his mean around her and kissed the top of her head

"It's okay" he said as he held Elle close. He knew how much thay she was struggling

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Elle stood in the room with Jackson. She was on teddys service with Jackson and apparently Cristina. Elle knew that she hadn't been cleared for surgery but she knew that she could still do consults