Being fat actually does affect somebodies.
How could we ever find comfort, when we know too damn well that our belly hangs low and our thighs jiggle when we walk?
They always say something good to other girlies but not to fat girl.
They say they wanted a big girl but what they mean is actually girl with nice bodies.
How will I feel comfortable in my own body?
I feel like a stranger looking within the voices didnt match the body.
The full body pictures never matches the face.
Living all these years but still be feeling strange with our own body.
Maybe you did think im used to hearing the comment and shames, thinking i thought of it as a joke.
But deep behind, it hurts me. Alot.
I tried to hide the pain behind the jokes.
Even it is was a joke.
It always got me,
Those comments kept on lingering on my mind.
The hardest feeling of being fat is actually,
trying on new clothes,
finding a bigger sizes,
getting used to wear bigger sizes because you believed you were fat.
Its how it feels while being surronded by your friends.
Being the only overweight and ugly person there does hurt me.
The voices in my head telling me they were laughing because Im fat, ugly.
It always feels like they were staring, because i am overweight.
I dont seem to understand what Im feeling but I tried my best to endure it.
Being fat is like being in a prison that can never be escaped.
If I eat the poison, they won.
If I dont Ill die.
Why is life so unfair.
No, why fate is unfair?
