Loving You While Losing me

Prologue

True love means getting hurt, taking risk, invading rules and fighting for it. But sometimes we fell in love not into the person whom we just sit and stare at. But we fell in love to the person where we kept on getting hurt again and again.

And again...

I fell in love with a person where my dad kept on telling me not to.

Pero masisisi mo ba kung ang taong pinagbabawal sakin ay iyon ang mahal ko?

I was standing in front of everybody. Hindi alam kung ano ang gagawin lalo't lalo na nakaluhod sa harapan ko ang lalaki. He opened the box as it revealed the sparking huge diamond ring.

"Will you marry me, Thalie?" Napasinghap ako at naiyak.

His friends were there pero natatakot din sa sususnod na mangyayari. Pero hindi pako nakapagsalita when a huge slap flew on his face!

"What the hell, kid?!" My father thundered. "I won't let my daughter marry a a traitor once again. You're a Madrigal!"

"Dad!" I cried stopping him from hurting Joaquin.

"Stay away from Nathalie!" He thundered while dragging me outside the venue.

I cried inside my room. Being locked up. I was hugging myself, panting, and pacing. Gusto kong lumabas, but my parents doesn't want me to go. I heard my Mom cried outside. Hindi gusto iyong nangyayari sakin.

My dad is a monster.

Hindi alam ng karamihan iyon.

"I told you not to see that Madrigal na lalaki na iyon!" He roared. "And he had the guts, to what?! Propose to you?! Are you out of your mind?!"

Mabilis lang na pumapatak iyong luha ko. Hindi gusto ang mga naririnig na salita galing kay Daddy. Why can't he just free me and love that Madrigal guy?

"Tama na! John!" My Mom cried.

"But I love him!" I defended.

"Nonsense!" He roared once again.

But...

I love... Joaquin.

We would just go to that abandoned place into the woods sometimes. Hindi kalayuan sa bahay. It's on the clif and you can see the beauty of both ocean and the grassland.

We would make our foods set there. And have the picnic. I stare at his eyes so deep. Na alam ko. Isang araw gigising na lang ako na wala nang 'kami'. But no matter how hard I try, alam ko na kapag dadating ang araw na 'yon... Hindi ako magiging preparado. 

"Joaquin. Natatakot ako." I whispered at him.

Yes. He came from a wealthy family. Besides that his family owned a lot of business. But still my father doesn't want me to marry him. Because of what happened to both of our families. He labeled Madrigals as traitors.

And I love a traitor. I love Joaquin.

"Don't worry, just lean into me when things were getting hard. Nandito lang ako. Hindi ako aalis." He assured.

I smiled. "Hindi rin ako aalis."

Napahiga ako sa dibdib niya habang nakatitig sa papalubog na araw.