𝐿𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑁𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡 𝐹𝑒𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔𝑠

𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑂𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟 𝑊𝑜𝑚𝑒𝑛. 𝑝𝑡2🥀

I went to your place the other day, I really like spending time with you.

That color really looks nice you

Your so warm

And that smile, you make me wanna blush.

I love when those sharp eyes of yours when they come lingering my way.

I could stare at them for hours...

Those eyes

Their so beautiful

Yet so deceiving . . .

how could this be!?

I'm a fool!

An idiot!

Blinded by false hope!

A joker in your game

How could I let my heart out to you?

When it continues to shatter the longer I stay.

Why am I so hopeless!?

How many more nights will go by

Crying myself to sleep

Wondering if I'll ever be good enough you.

Is sex the only thing I'm worth you?

She haunts my thoughts and dreams

I'm so angry

You'll never understand how I feel

I want to open up to so badly

But I feel like you'll think it's nothing but jealously.

I don't know anymore

I'm so attached to you my love

I always am

But I'm scared

Scared you'll let me down just like the rest.

Scared you aren't who you say you are.

Scared that I'm only being used, and that I'll end up getting played.

There's so many things rushing through my mind

I'm so fucking scared.

It hurts

My heart aches so much to the point where I can't sleep

I keep swiping hoping that notification is you

But it isn't.

It's strange

I'm never happy even when I act like it

The moment your eyes drift off somewhere else my smile fades away.

When i leave your place and step out those doors sadness is the only thing waiting for me.

I don't want to burden you with that.

But I can't help but feel that way

the image you have of me needs to be perfect it has to be.

But...

Even if I told how it all made me feel..

Just once maybe you- no.

You won't understand how I feel or why I sometimes act out even when you've done no harm.

But I just want you to understand

Why can't you just understand my pain?

How do I tell you without feeling ashamed.