"So if I can't be close to you,
I settle for the ghost of you
I missed you more than life. "
I sang while looking at the audience na naghihiyawan at sumasabay sa akin kumanta. While looking at them, I remember the girl who helped me to be part of this band and that's the time she left without any reason. No one knows where she is now, even her family don't know. She went missing, they say. Her family was blaming me, ako kasi ang huli niyang tinawagan at kinausap.
"and if you can't be next to me
your memory is ecstacy
I miss you more than life
I miss you more than life"
I'm stopping myself from crying. Since highschool I have feelings for her, hindi ko masabi-sabi dahil torpe ako ng mga araw na iyon.
When we were in college, I confess and she ignored me.
When we graduate, she tells her feelings towards me.
After a year of courting her, we became lovers for more than 3 years.
But after our 4th anniversary, she went missing.
She went missing, that's what they thought. But for me, she's not.
Because I know she's always beside me.
She doesn't want me to tell her family that she died not until I'll find the letter she wanted me to read, it's hard for me to keep it from them.
I found her letter just now, inside the guitar I am using, I opened it and read. Dikit na dikit doon ang papel na halos hindi ko mapansin.
"when you found this letter, siguro wala na ako.
I just want you to know that I love you even in my last breath.
actually, we have a child, her name is Anrie. she's in my mother right now... "
I stop reading and burst out crying.. after a moment I continued.
"sana, puntahan mo sya, lagi ka kasi niya hinahanap.
sorry for not telling you this, baby..
while I'm in abroad, I'm so scared, I have a heart disease and that's when I found out I was pregnant.
Please, tell my mother that I'm fine now, no one was hurting me, my father can't hurt me anymore, and my brother, tell him he has the evidence to put my father in jail. I love you all. "
she died because of heart disease that's what the doctor said. But when the doctor examine her, they saw bruises on her body and there's a blood that stock on her brain.
