New Encounter (Germany x France)

Chapter 7-Emotionless

GERMANY POV

Last night, I saw this terrible nightmare. It is neither the first one nor the last one. I couldn't sleep, believing he would return once I fell asleep. However, my lack of rest made me think some things and jump to conclusions too. I couldn't let anyone know about my condition, my past. When I was still young, I learnt that showing emotion was a weakness that could help your enemy find your soft spot. My father taught me that, of course...World War I was still going on back then. And even after that, on World War II, I was still acting emotionessly, never letting anyone see through my heart of stone. Maybe...I should do it again. Noone, at work at least, has seen me expressing significant feelings, I could just keep acting like that...

Cold...

Ignorant...

Strict...

I couldn't risk it, I had to do it...I don't have friends either so it can't be that bad for everyone else, right? I will only be a strict boss to them, nothing more, nothing less. Besides, better suffering alone than with everyone else remembering what I did and who I used to be. How hard could it be?

Noone actually remembers me, but I see everything. Every time I look on their faces, I hear a different scream of war, different senses of pain. And I'm suffering, I'm really suffering. But I can do nothing about it for now.

'But Germany, what about your meeting with France? You were sympathetic.' Indeed, I was sympathetic. Unfortunately, I have to forget this side of myself, I can't show emotions to anyone. Especially to France...I remember her, very well now. I even was feeling somehow about her back then...I wouldn't call it 'love' exactly, but it was something strong. Nothing could do though, she was with the enemies of mine, the Allies. The truth is that I didn't recognise her much when I first saw her yesterday. The realisation hit me moments later, she has changed much, physically at least. However, she remembers nothing of me as well, it's for the best. And of course, I'm not gonna reveal to her who I really am. She would think of me being a monster, a mistake, a trash...And I can't experience all this again...I have only my siblings to stand for me and support me, Switzerland and Austria, my younger brother.

I was thinking about my disastrous life, when my phone rang. I was sitting in my office, all the others minding their business on the other side of this locked door. I answered the call. "Hallo?". "Guten Morgen, Deutschland! Wie geht es dir?(Good morning, Germany! How are you?)". It was Switzerland. I smiled hearing her voice. "Ich bin sehr gut(I'm very good), at least besser(better) since last night...". "I'm very happy to hear that you are better, I was so worried about you...Anyways, I was thinking of visiting you at work today, is that alright?". I felt my mood coming back, an instant happiness. "Of course, that would be wunderbar(amazing)! I will be waiting for you, I will see you when you come.". "Great! See you later then, I will be there in about 30 minutes, I need to prepare myself to see my loved brother. Oh! Don't tell Austria I have a soft spot for you!", she sounded excited. I chuckled. "First of all, you are always beautiful. Second of all, he will never learn it.", I let out a little laugh. "I am counting on you! See you later, then.". "See you soon.", we hung up. Finally, something that would help me feel a little better. You might wondering, but me and my sister share a special bond. The youngest of the three, but she is super intelligent and supportive. She was always here for me, and has an important position in my heart.

After this call, I decided to finally get out. I actually realised that I had to print some contracts and then fill them in. I went out and headed for the nearest printer, trying to avoid any interaction. But luckily, there weren't many people walking on the corridors, so that was quite easy. I arrived at the printer, ready to print the required contracts, when I saw Italy approaching me. Okay, emotionless mode on. "Good morning, Mr. Germany! How are you this fine day?", he said happily. I am gonna regret being this cold to everyone, but I can't risk it. I just glanced at him blankly and answered monotonicly. "Good morning, Italy...I'm fine. How about you?". "I'm great! Well, I actually wanted to inform you that I finished the papers you gave me to sign. They are in my office, should I bring them to you?". "Well, I have some work going on now as you can see...Can you bring them later?". Maybe it was just my imagination, but I think that Italy was a little taken aback by statement, I hope I didn't sound hurtful..."Oh, yeah, of course! I will bring them later. I have some work now, if you excuse me. See you around!". "Goodbye...". Well, that was harder than I thought...I don't like talking like that...

The next few minutes passed silently, for me at least. I was glancing at the people that were passing by me, luckily they didn't stop for small talk and general interaction.

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A/N: I know that this is a sudden stop, but I want to sleep...😅