Okay, this chapter is a bit all over the place...the ending MAY be triggering, so beware of that. I didn't want to do all this so early, but oh well-
Also, this chapter is everywhere but just deal with it💀 it's kinda rushed, kinda shitty tbh, but idc💀
Casey
"Cam."
"Yes, Casey?"
"What the fuck do I do?"
My sister sighs over the phone. I sit and wait for her to give me some of her golden advice. However, Camilia takes her sweet ass time to reply to my question. "We just had this conversation."
"And?"
"I don't know, Casey. What does your heart want?"
What is that supposed to mean? My heart over what? My lungs? My stomach? What is she on? She's a nurse so she should know all about the organs. "What do you mean?"
"Listen to your heart. Do you like Westley or Russell?"
I scoff at her advice. How could she do this to me? "I'm trying to figure that out."
"Why do you like Russell?"
Because he's good in bed and gives me attention, duh. He's the comforting person that I can't resist. "He's...familiar and always there."
"Does he feel like home?"
Home? I wouldn't say he feels like home. I can go weeks without seeing him. The only reason I go back to him is because of sex and he's always there for me. Gosh, I'm such a piece of shit. "Not necessarily."
"Okay, why do you like Westley."
Words spill out my mouth. I'm not sure if it's due to sleep deprivation or because Westley occupies my mind. I mean, who wouldn't like and talk about Westley? He's one of the greatest people I met. I trust him so much whenever it normally takes me months to years to open up to people about certain topics.
I inhale a breath, not realizing I have been talking for so long. When I finish, Camilla snickers. "See, you definitely like Westley more."
She's right. Even when Russell and I first began messing around, I never felt this intense amount of passion for him. To be honest, I don't think I've ever felt passion for Russell. Did I confuse lust for love? Maybe I'm going insane; I need to sleep.
"But there's something about Russell...like, why can't I stay away from him?"
"Because you're a horny teenage boy." Shit, she got me there. "You like Russell sexually and you like Westley romantically."
Damn, she's right "So...what do I do...?"
Camilia sighs dramatically at my question. "Oh my gosh, get with Westley," she screeches. "Drop Russell."
"What if I regret it and actually like Russell?"
"Don't you think something would've already happened between Russell and you if you had genuine feelings for him?"
