Life Through My Lens

for andrea

i am confused

i used to think

how could i ever like a girl

i don't know

but i do

or did i guess

she made me feel safe 

wrapped her arms around me

when my heart was skipping beats

listening for gunshots

now she tells me about the guys she dates

the crushes

all he's and him's

now i think of her when i'm lying awake

what would happen if she ever wanted to date

but she doesn't

because she's straight