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Life update {11/03/23}

Hey :)

I assume you're here either because you stumbled across this for some reason or you're genuinely reading it for the intended purpose. If the former I'll give some context.

I've been off and on this app for a while now, and kind of went inactive for a few weeks without notice. I'm back now and although I still won't be as active, I'll try to at least explain why. I don't want to leave people in the dark, especially those waiting on reviews or promotions.

If you have been waiting on either or both, I apologize. In all honesty, I bit off more than I could chew. I didn't expect so many reviews to come in and such a huge wave of people wanting promotions. I can barely handle personal things atm, so things are slow moving. Don't get too hopeful

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TL;DR: burnt out, mentally drained, life is kinda icky.

In short, life has just kinda sucked recently. Nothings been enjoyable anymore, including writing. There's nothing I'd love more than to hop on my laptop and write a few chapters, type up a few reviews, and be active on this app, but I just can't. I don't even enjoy doing what I love (theatre) anymore.

I've been mentally draining for honestly a while now, but it's only gotten worse. The thing is that I've never felt like this in a while, two years specifically. For the most part, I had been pretty well mentally and physically. But recently it's just been going downhill. I feel like everybody around me hates me, I'm losing hope on my future and my dreams (maybe it's just because I'm a pessimist, but still), and the people around me aren't helping. Getting told you suck at your passion takes a toll on your self esteem. Just in general, people just... suck (like I literally had someone on Friday tell me that nobody liked me... and she was my friend too- like damn, alright girl 😭 and no, she wasn't teasing).

I've honestly just been focusing on trying to get myself not to spiral further. Along with that, I feel tired and fatigued almost everyday. I never have any motivation or energy to do anything, even if I really want to. I've lost my desire to even try.
Oh, and just to add, I lost my cat that I've had since I was born last week. That didn't help.

I'm not gonna dump all of my trauma and feelings onto yall, at least not here. But just excuse me if I'm not responding to PM's or it's been weeks that you've been waiting for a promotion. My health, mentally and physically, will always come first, and that should apply to everyone as well. I still do appreciate the votes and reads on all of my chapters and shops, it's nice to know people are still at least glancing at them. If one day I leave this app for good or I never come back, I hope people will still continue to read Crooks and enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it.

Take care <3