Why do I stay?
I'm done with my overstay,
I need to weigh where my heart really needs to lay,
I want to run very far away.
Away from your heart,
The countless 'Sorrys' can't really fix my hurt,
When I need you, where you at?
Always and forever we said, right?
Right?Where is our Always and forever?
I don't want to have this feeling forever,
Never ever,
You once called me a liar, faker ,pretender,
You words still play in my head like a broken record.
Records that have turned into painful memories,
My heart bleeds,
Can you see it?It shatters
Into tiny pieces,
I'm broken,it still bleeds.
Ça ira ,I tell myself daily,
It takes two for it to work sincerely ,
I loved you wholeheartedly,
But I'll be breaking myself to love sm who doesn't make efforts endlessly.
You show up for your friends ,instead of me,
When was the last time you showed up for me,
You fight against me instead with me,
I'm not your enemy ,I've always been on your side and you should be beside me.
It's us against the world,
But in reality it's the world against us,
Should I fight?
Fight for sth that's already dead?
I'm bemused.
I can't fight anymore
I need to choose myself more.
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