I can see you

Way to school

My brother was standing in my room
,,do you have a boyfriend?"
,,huh what?"
I was still laying in bed all confused and sleepy
,,why do you think that?"
,,you've been all secretive and stuff and I think you have a bf"
,,well I don't now go"
He looked at me with a sceptical glance
,,alr"
And with that he closed the door and left me alone in my room
Yesterday
Idk if that really happened but it was so awesome

I put on my uggs while trying to fix my hair
It was a mess
The pink ends of my hair were starting to faint
I need to re do them

,,byee"
And with that I closed the door

I tried to start my car
About 5 times
It didn't work
,,no no shit"
,,you need a ride princess?"
I turned around to see rep stopping her car
,,uh-I uh yea"
,,hop in"
I packed my car keys in my beg before opening the door to reps passenger seat
She smiled at me before putting music on full blast and driving down the road
She made me feel nervous
Not only because of everything that happened
But just for being her
Yesterday I got a anonymous text telling me that I should stay away from her cause she's a psychopath
I tried to ignore the thought as it started to fly around my head again
,,r u alr darling? You've been awfully quiet"
She made me snap out of my thoughts and I could see that we were already in the parking lot of our school
,,uh huh"
,,ok"
She leaned over to my ear
Hand on my thigh
,,see you later sweetheart"
And with that she got out of the car and just walked away
I sat there for a few seconds before gaining back my mind
What was happening
A few weeks ago I was the weird nerd she liked to bully and now my thoughts were full of her touching and kissing me
Oh god
What have I become
Am I a Slut now?
I am out to the school and not even to my parents
I have a relationship with a problematic girl and I don't even know if it is a relationship
I am starting to collect my first experience in romance
And all that just cause of this new school?
What was happening to me?

,,lover I am disappointed"
My teacher was putting the paper on my table
Biology
C
I've never gotten a C in my whole life
No no no
It's all just cause I am not focusing enough
I need to study
Omg
I panicked on the inside while looking over to folk who got an A
Ofc she did
She doesn't have a girl flying around in her head all day making her day dream about all the things they can do

The school day went by fast
I was glad about that
My mom offered to pick me up from school
,,reps mum is coming over later! Maybe she's coming with her?"
,,no mum I can't I need to study"
,,oh honey it's not a big deal you're a good student and we all got C's and D's and even worse at some point
That's totally natural!"
I Just nodded
But I live for the academic validation

I studied for hours
My focus was on biology cause I had to show that teacher that I am not stupid

,,what is that I don't..."

*knock*

An: heyy long time no update I am sorry hahaha I've just been stressed out with school
I also got some bad grades so I am disappointed:/