I began to spend time with Killian more often with every chance I got. Naging busy na rin kasi si Killian sa company and with their mafia business, supporting his brother, Serj. I was curious, especially about their mafia work though I didn't dare ask. I knew it was something I shouldn't cross. Although I had a feeling that Killian would answer any question I asked.
Naging tambayan ko ang penthouse n'ya. Halos doon na nga ako tumira. Killian already asked me to move in with him but I declined. It was early for us to reach that level in our relationship. Kahit na gustong-gusto ko s'yang katabing matulog kaya nga palagi akong nandoon. So, there were times when he would get home and I could smell gunpowder on him, or when the darkness surrounding him felt more imminent that I guessed that he tortured someone again.
I'm not sure... Hindi ako nagtatanong. Hindi ko dapat pasukin ang parte ng buhay n'yang 'yon. They said that it was the curiosity that killed the cat.
Kaya nakuntento na lang ako sa pagbisita sa office n'ya para mas makasama n'ya and sleeping with him at his place. And also, sex. We were always having sex.
The sex was really good. Nawala na rin ang hiyang nararamdaman ko noon. I got engulfed in his fire as I surrendered myself to him. As dangerous as he could be, I just let him devour me. After all, I liked everything he was making me feel.
It was as if I became bolder when I finally defied my parents. Mas naging matapang ako. Mas naging open sa mga gusto ko. I wasn't afraid to take any risk anymore. I finally let loose of myself.
The only times we weren't together were if Killian had meetings with or without Serj. Hindi ako pumupunta sa office nila kapag ganoon. Not with what happened last time. Like heck, I was a complete distraction for Killian! He abruptly ended the meeting. Ni hindi man lang nga s'ya nagpaalam nang maayos sa mga kausap n'ya!
Iniiwasan ko rin si Serj. He told me that I would even help Killian with his concentration. Pero kabaligtaran ang nangyari. Pakiramdam ko, may malaki tuloy akong kasalanan sa kanya. The meeting looked so important tapos ganon 'yung ginawa ni Killian.
And Killian even said that he had no problem concentrating on two things at the same time! That was obviously not the case. Not when I was around.
Though, he assured me that there was nothing I should be worried about. Sila naman daw ang investor sa project para sa meeting na 'yon kaya sila ang nililigawan. So, they set another meeting para pag-usapan ulit ang lahat.
Still, hindi ko na s'ya binibisita sa office kapag may meeting s'ya. I just don't want to be a distraction again.
"Kasama mo na naman ang nobyo mo?"
Napangiti ako sa tanong ni Lola. Mukhang nagsasawa na yata na palagi kong binabanggit si Killian kapag tinatanong n'ya kung nasaan ako whenever I video called her.
I giggled before I nodded.
"Nandito po kami sa loob ng office n'ya."
"Aba'y baka nakakaistorbo ka na sa trabaho n'ya, hija. Palagi kang nand'yan."
I glanced at Killian beside me. He was busy reading some papers through his spectacles while I had my pen and sketchpad on my lap. We were both sitting on the sofa. Nakasandal ako patagilid sa katawan ni Killian and he had an arm snaked on my waist. He was leaning on the armrest. Ang isang kamay n'ya ay hawak ang papeles na binabasa n'ya. Pero hindi s'ya nakikita ni Lola sa anggulong 'to.
I took a break for a while today and let my staff handle making my designs. Iyong kaya lang nila at hindi na kailangan ng supervision ko. My fashion show will be held next month and we have already started preparations. I was done handing out invitations too.
