Don't Speak

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THIS SONG DOES NOT BELONG TO ME!! IT IS ONE OF MY FAVORITES ALL CREDITS TO THE ARTIST!!

This song is during when Percy first gets back to camp without Bianca, and later when Bianca communicates to him in ghost form. Italicized Nico's thoughts. You can start listening at any part.  I would recommend after you started the second paragraph.

Nico's P.O.V.

 I felt like Bia, was dead but she couldn't be. Percy promised he would protect her. He wouldn't break that promise. She has to be. She already left me alone at camp. She can't leave me alone in the living, she can't she loves me. Percy should be arriving at camp with the hunters soon.

  We've been drifting apart, I can tell she seems tired of me. I wanna tell her. Bia don't leave me. You and me, we used to be together. Every day together, it's us against this strange new world. Always, remember? She has to she wouldn't leave me. Why do I really feel that I'm lost my best friend

I can't believe this could be the end. Maybe she doesn't want an annoying brother, that's why she ditched me first second she got. What if I'm alone now? No, stop thinking like that Percy wouldn't break his promise, and Bianca is strong, she wouldn't leave me here alone.

Yet, it feels as though she's lettin' go. And if it's real, well, I don't want to know. They'll both be back tomorrow, and Bia and I will both be safe.

Next day

Percy has come back! And I finally get to see Bia, I missed her so much. I can't wait for her to tell me all the monsters she killed. She's going to be so cool!

"Percy where's Bianca?" I ask when they all come in. He looks down, tears in his eyes.

"Nico, I-I'm sorry, she, she sacrificed herself to save u-us" he said quietly. I felt tears go down my face, hot angry tears. How could Percy Jackson not save her! How could Bianca leave me? She's gone, forever. I felt the ground start to shake slightly.

"YOU PROMISED!" I yelled at Percy backing up.

"I'm-I'm sorry she didn't tell me what she was gonna-gonna-"  Percy starts.

Don't speak, I know just what you're saying. So please stop explainin' Don't tell me 'cause it hurts... There's a tear in the ground as skeletons come up and start attacking, Percy uncaps Riptide. He slices, them but they reform. I swipe my hand, and they go back into the ground.

"I NEVER WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN PERSEUS JACKSON!" I yelled, before I started running into the woods, and eventually a shadow. I saw the look of hurt in the demigod's eyes as I ran into as shadow and melted through it some how.

Don't speak, I know what you're thinkin. And I can't take your pain right now, my only family is gone, forever...

In the future, after Minos, and everything.

"I have tried to summon you, and you didn't answer me once! You only answer him and he let you die!" I yell at Bianca's spirit.

"I was hoping you would stop trying, Nico you need to calm down. Your not mad at Percy, your mad at me, and I'm sorry for leaving you but I-" she starts to explain.

 I don't need your reasons

"I had to, it was my role. You can't keep this grudge it's our fatal flaw" she said.

"Calm down, Calm down? BIANCA YOU LEFT ME! ALONE HERE, WITHOUT ANYONE! NO FAMILY! NO PARENTS, YOUR GONE NOW. AND I'M STILL HERE MISERABLE. YOU LEFT ME!" I cry.

"I'm sorry Nico, but I did what had to be done. You'll understand when your older. I love you kid," she said, talking down to me. I cry harder.

Don't tell me 'cause it hurts

"Our memories, well, they can be inviting. But some are altogether mighty frightening. I'm sorry I left you but, you were tiring and I wanted a life, not just as your older sister. And I died a hero" she said.

"You've gotten so big. I have to go now, make sure to respect and behave. I love you Soldatino" she said, waving. Her soul fading back to the underworld.

As we die, both you and I, your soul, and the child, that I once was. With my head in my hands, I sit and cry.

Percy tries to hug me, but I jump back immediately. Don't speak, I know just what you're sayin'
So please stop explainin' I don't want no more apologies, they don't bring her back. They don't bring the me before Minos back. 

Percy looks at me with a sad look in his eyes when I deny exchanging Daedalus. He opens his mouth to say something. Please don't tell me 'cause it hurts, no, no, no. I will not cry again. He looks like he wants to say something, but I tip my head towards him. And shadow travel away.

It's all ending, my family, my happiness
We gotta stop pretending that I'm still a child.

A few days later, Nico's kid self is Bold and a broken Nico is now Italicized

Percy just gave me the Mythomagic figure, Bianca got for me. He said 'it's okay to be childish sometimes' .  To bad I'm not a child.

 Aren't we? Were only 12 we don't have to grow up, we could have friends!

Don't speak, I know just what you're sayin'. But we can't I'm a Hades kid, I only cause death, that's why Bia died, why Mama died, why everyone I ever love will either die or hurt is...
 

 Please stop explainin' Don't tell me 'cause it hurts. We were happy once, we can be again, Bia would've wanted me to be happy.

 Bianca's dead, and she went on that quest, to get away from this part of me. I killed her, I made her leave. 

No, no, don't speak.

It was fun being a kid, but that part of me has to die with Bianca, I can't afford to be so trusting, so fucking naive anymore. I know what I'm thinkin', I think I can be normal, well I can't. I'm the creepy, gay, emo, hades kid.

Bianca left, and I don't need her reasons anymore. Cause they hurt. Don't tell me 'cause it hurts. Stop crying, you don't deserve to grieve her, you killed her. You almost killed Percy Jackson. You need to stop.

Then I hear Bianca's voice sing to me, from the past before all of this, before the Lotus Casino,
"La, la, la, la, la, la, la, la. Don't, don't, ooh, ooh. Hush, hush, darling. Hush, hush, darling.
Hush, hush. Don't think about it or it'll hurt... Hush, hush, darling; Hush, hush, darling;
Hush, hush...

Don't cry when it hurts

 I force myself to stop crying. 

As Bianca's sweet loving voice rings in my mind, "Oh, hush, hush, darling
Hush, hush, darling" she sings. I wipe my tears, and stand up. I have to keep going, she can't have died for me to be useless.

I hope you liked this, I know it was sad. Nico not letting himself being a kid, breaking. My poor neeks. But I really liked pairing this situation with this song. Thank you so much for reading, Love, you or not, whatever you want me to feel,

-Raine <3

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