Sometimes, out of nowhere,
I hear music playing as if for me,
As if I were in a movie;
Where am I?
Sometimes, out of nowhere,
I hear people calling my name,
And then they think I'm crazy;
Who am I?
Sometimes, out of nowhere,
I hear people congratulating me,
But of course it's imaginary;
What time is it again?
I think by now this is the end of my life,
I've had thirteen years to live,
It's good enough now.
If you want, I can leave right now,
Though I've still got so much left to do here.
I've disconnected myself from my brain,
But my heart is still wired up.
I get tired because I go to bed later than I should,
And then I wake up.
My own mind is a slave of itself,
Being overworked and underpaid;
The sales haven't been great.
My other friend is contemplating death,
And I think it's rubbing off on me but
Little do they know I've been through it before,
But they still think I'm new to this planet.
I think I'd like to sign off on here now,
So if you could take me, that would be great;
I don't want to be responsible
For murder.
I'm ready now,
Not actually though.
Five more minutes?
Though I think I felt ready
A lifetime ago.
But I think this is the end of me;
But wait!
There's one more aspect I can think to it,
Life really isn't as simple as I would hope.
Everyone surrounding me,
Just think of all the money,
All the things they spent on me.
Energy, Dopamine, precious seconds of their heart beating.
Maybe I don't want mine to stop just yet;
So then I live for other people.
The strangers that surround me.
Maybe they'll never know who I am,
But I know them and that's all that matters;
I need to start keeping secrets.
I need to start living longer.
I want to help my friend reach the top and keep climbing the mountain.
It's not that difficult,
To stay up late.
To be a human.
It's a little bit difficult
To live a little longer.
I have so many more books to write.
And poems to share!
But I guess that's on me for thinking otherwise.
Is it my fault?
Am I the one to blame for my death?
Or maybe it's everyone else's fault;
Maybe they weren't good enough.
Or maybe I'll just never be good enough;
I'll just have to wait and see.
Or maybe not...
But no.
I can ask another if I am good enough;
Perhaps you, love...
No, not you, love...
I'm sorry, love.
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I Think
PoetryA poetry collection based on life of all forms, mainly taking center in the human brain; an ode to growing older.