I Think

The Process of Elimination

Sometimes I ponder how people leave other people's lives.

It's almost as if one moment they're there, then suddenly they disappear.

Sometimes I miss the people I cut, and then sometimes I don't.

It really depends on how much I actually knew them, and how much they meant to me.

There was a girl who I ghosted once, who texted me "hello" over the summer.

I was terrified to answer; my mother told me some people in my life needed to go.

I realized that sometimes people use you to feel better about themselves,

Hence I have never spoken to her since that incident.

I feel guilty. I'm so guilty,

I'm guilty of murder from my point of view.

Now nobody sees me, and though I'm surrounded by everyone, yet the world feels lonely;

I'm still learning how to embrace every moment without you.

I am so grateful. There are some moments when I feel loved beyond doubt, and some where I feel lonely.

Do you think if you could see me now, that you would be proud of me?

I want to look at your face; but alas, all I have is beautiful pictures of you,

From when I was young, and when you were old, and when I knew you loved me.

Do you think if you knew me now, you would still love me?

Or would you narrow me down by the process of elimination?

I love you.