Past love?

Chapter-2

I lazily sat on the couch and watched the talk show host get roasted by the guest. But, I couldn't pay attention to the television as the wallpaper,the same old carpet, the silent surrounding except for the tv noise and the way the rays of sun fell through the window filled my body with nostalgia. Soon, I heard the doorbell ring. It couldn't be my parents or my brother since they don't ring the doorbell let alone be home at this time.

'please tell me it isn't relatives'

'don't be a family member'

'please-don't be a relative'

I repeated the sentence in my mind as if it were an affirmation. The thought of me being home alone and a relative visiting the house haunted me. I opened the door to be faced with him. No wonder the last three days went by so calmly.

"What are you doing here? And how do you know that I live here?" I asked. My face immediately made a scowl to show him the displeasure I felt when I see him. Every time I see him, I have a vivid flashback of those painful memories.

"You...left your phone and...your student ID was there with it" he said, extending my broken phone with care.

I glanced at the phone and snatched it from his hands.

"Thank you. Don't ever come back here again " I said, closing the door but he stopped it midway.

"Come..back..to me" he said in a sad tone.

"If..you don't...I don't know what I...might do...you and Yuzuru were the only ones there for me..." he continued. The tone of his voice was similar to that of an abandoned dog. I glanced at him for a while but immediately picked myself up.

"We are done. Forever. Those words won't work with me again" I said, looking away.

"Leave and don't fuck with my family or i'll kill you" I said and The flashback of him saying almost those same words pierced my heart.

'what if he really needs help?'

'what if he really feels like spiraling down into nothingness?'

I leaned against the shut door as millions of questions about him riddled my head.

'what if-ugh-why am I thinking that way again?'

'I need to stop'

'I can't save him. I tried once already'

'I can't-'

He is like a drug in my life. If I start caring, I would want to save him no matter what. No matter how much it would corrode or ruin me.

'he doesn't matter'

'stop caring about him'

'remember what he did to you'

I self talked with myself to get out of the despair. But, in reality, it was an illusion. I couldn't seem to get out of the despair.

I exhaled a long breath and turned towards the corridor. The creak of the door opening made me look back again.
To my dismay, it wasn't him. Why did I feel disappointed that it wasn't him? It was a question that I never got the answer to.

"DID SOMETHING HAPPEN?" My younger brother asked me.

"No" I replied.

"Then-that man-Akihito-what was he doing here?" he asked, making me widen my eyes.

"How do you know him?" I asked. I could feel my heart pounding. I so didn't want him to meet let alone interact with the people I love.

"Oh well-I...just saw him go out-he looked sad and pissed-uh-you know..." He dragged on, trying to find an excuse.

"How do you know him?" I asked again, crossing my arms. He looked down and then back at me. He then tried to come up with an obvious excuse and paused.

"Fine-the gang I am in you knoww...we have a fight with his gang..." He confessed.

"Gang fight?" I questioned.

"You are not getting in a gang fight with anyone. I'll tell mom. Do you know how dangerous they are?" I scolded him.

"But you used to involve yourself in gang fights a lot when you were like me" he reasoned.

"That's different. You don't even know how to fight " I said.

"You were the best and we have the same genes. Of course I should also have a talent for fights!" He said.

"Thats not how its supposed to work dumbfuck. You are not in getting into any gang fight, especially he ones involved with him " I said.

"But-" he revolted.

"No buts" I said in a stern word.

//////////////////////////////next day/////////////////////////////

At the end,I ended up following my younger brother for the whole day. This made me know a lot of things about him, like the girlfriend he never told me about, his gang, how stupid he is to the point I question if he really is my blood related brother. I hide behind one of the bushes as I see him take some juice cans with Hailey, that was the girl's name apparently. The girl walks first while my brother walks behind her.
Out of the corner I notice two slender figures on a bike. The one sitting behind was holding a long metal rod.

'what? Have they started including murder in these fights?'

I come out of the bush, quickly running towards the girl right as the bike nears.

"Excuse me-so uh-Look out!" I yelled, pulling her away from the bike. But, to my misfortune, the rod hit the top of my forehead. The back of my head hit the ground as my head started spinning. The blonde girl started saying something but I couldn't make out. I somehow managed to hold my head and put some pressure to stop the bleeding.

"HIKARI" My brother's voice yelled. His figure came into my view.

"Don't die-Hospital. What were you doing here anyway?" he cried loudly.

"I... won't...die...dumbfuck" I softly smiled, trying to comfort him, or rather, myself. I didn't want to die so young. I wasn't even in the middle chapter of my life. Its too short..

"Ikari!" Another male voice yelled.

"WHY DID YOU- HOSPITAL.-STAY CONSIOUS-STAY-" The dark haired male who I never wanted to see panicked and said stuff. I couldn't make out all the sentences but I heard some words. My consciousness was falling. It was falling into the depths of pure abyss.
Why did he sound so concerned?