OBSESSION:LIBERATION OF FEELINGS

Chapter 2

"Sebastian, You ready to go?"

I knocked two times at his door, when it made a clicking sound I stepped back and waited for him to come out.

"Hi, Nandyan kana pala" He greeted me.

This was when it was still a He.

I smiled at him as we stepped out of his dorm building, It's been a while since we hanged out lagi nya na kasi kasama yung mga kaibigan nya sa Univ nya.

"How's school lately? lulubog likiwmtaw mga works namin, Diko alam if ganonntalaga or it's a school management thing pero I'm hanging in there" Kwento ko sakanya, He nooded.

"Ayos naman, Medyo hindi naman busy nakakahanap na nga ako ng time mag hanap ng mga boylet e" It's now afternoon and we decided na mag road trip, Well actually pupunta kami sa bahay nung friend nya kasi mag iinuman and I was invited since they would like to meet me.

Malapit lang yung park-an ng kotse nya kaya mabilis naman kaming nakasakay at lumarga sa daan.

"That's nice, how about yung mga friends mo dun, I am gonna meet them later anyways pero any thoughts I should hear about?" Nakangiting tanong ko at lumingin sakanya, sandali nya akong tinignan din bago ibaling ulit ang mata nya sa daan.

Also, We're gonna pick up his another friend dahil sasabay yun samin.

"Eh? Hindi paba ako nag kwekwento sayo tungkol sa mga yun? " Gulat na tanong nya kaya napatawa ako ng mahina "Well you introduced them to me, Si Kiefer, Ivana, Daniela and si Veno? They're all gay maliban kay Veno and Kiefer and diko matandaan kung anong course nila basta alam ko kaedad natin sila but two of them are older and one of them is 2 years younger?" parang nanghuhula na sabi ko.

Tumango sya "Korek, Yung si Ivana at Daniela they're both almost girlalu na pero hindi nakakapag operasyon, Pero when you see them naka girl mas maganda pa sayo yun" Malambot na pagpapakilala nito sa mga kaibigan "I can imagine" Pakikisakay ko sa sinabi nya at napatawa kaming dalawa.

Tumahik naman bigla ang buong sasakyan pagkatapos non, I didn't mind the silence but it felt like something's bothering him.

I don't know, I am very happy to see him again in person that I can't think of anything else and if anything else I just want to admire him, Like what I've been doing this years.

Secretly.

But sincerely.

I stole a glance at him.

But he's gay, Since I've met him.

I don't want him to change, Not for me, Nor because I like him but I liked him like that, For him bejng himself, I don't want anything to change, I liked him like that.

But he's still gay, He might be comfortable bejng friends and close with women but totally not being with or date one.

...

Well I don't think so kasi I honestly think since dati pa na he wouldn't like it even if a women he knows or someone confess their love for him, He would be horrified.

Kaya better shut my trap.

No chance.

And it's alright, I'll dug my own grave secretly.

"I've thought nga din na maybe I want to be a woman too" He suddenly spoke that made me immediately stare at him in shock.

I heard him clear.

The car stopped at red light and he shyly smiled and looked back at me and shrug his shoulder.

"Well I've always had the thought of maybe I want to become a woman or am I really just gay, Pero hanging out with those gays I think I want to be also a woman" He explained, There's a gist of hesitation in his tone but I think he's pretty sure about it.