my eyes are always finding you

8. my fault

At flight

Zhan thinking about yibo ,he decide to write this moment, this feeling in his dairy but he didn't find it ,he think that he packed his dairy with his another bag

At xiao mention

Yibo can't sleep because of his uneasy feeling he never feel that much uneasy, not when haikuan leave him ,he don't want to make worry everyone so he decided to sleep but can't sleep

In the morning at xiao mention

Yibo fresh up and went to the dining room everyone there but not his zhan gege ,yibo asked mom that why zhan ge is late today ,zhan's mom told him that last night he didn't even eat anything and perhaps he was sleeping, zhan's mom send yibo to check him

When yibo enter in zhan's room yibo see empty room zhan was not there he tell zhan's mom and dad and everyone come to zhan's room , zhan's clothes were not in the cupboard

Yibo's foot heated by the bed andYibo find zhan's dairy under the bed yibo start reading dairy loudly everyone can hear and feel that words

In zhan's dairy

Hii yibo

Actually I want to tell my feelings to you but I am afraid that you will reject me or perhaps you will ignore me and that's why I write this dairy ,I don't won't to hurt you yibo

I am really happy when you are smiling around me or even if you stay beside me I am happy

It's feel like heaven you know our frist meeting , when I saw you first time in our house it's like something between us I can't even explain this feeling to you

I told my mom and dad but tell me that it's just attraction first I thought that too when realizing my feelings are not attraction it's love bodi it's love

Yes my bodi your zhan gege loves you so much ,when you smile at me my heart skipped heart beat, no one can explain feelings in words but bodi if someone asked me describing love ,I can only say your name bodi

Your everything thing for me
I can do anything for just see a smile on your face

It's hurting me when I saw you sad face, you think that I don't know anything but bodi your zhan gege knew everything when miss your mom I know that you never talk about it because you don't want to hurt mom and dad but bodi you know they are your mom dad too

Let's skip
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That day when haikuan leave yibo
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Yibo I know you miss that person you never talk about him and I never dared to ask you because I don't want to feel you uncomfortable

But today you Break my heart for first time I know it's not your fault but yibo it's hurt's

I never say a word about my feelings , my eyes are always finding you

And today
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That person who leave you haikuan was back and you behaved like nothing happened that day yibo

I know I can't say a word to your personal life now I am no longer your zhan gege

I feel so insecure yibo I can't see you with anyone else how can someone see their love, their special one with someone

But if you're happy with him I don't want to become villain in your life yibo

Yibo I will die if I stay here some more time, please forgive your gege to leave you

I love you bodi I love you so much, you know I prepared a proposal plan for you then it's happened

Please forgive your gege Don't cry yibo mom dad and haikuan there you don't need your gege

Bye bodi I love you

Zhan's tears stain were there on the dairy yibo can see this after reading his gege's dairy yibo feel regret and guilt

Yibo start crying and sobbing so hard

Yibo:if I told that day in the hospital that I love you too then it can't happen

Yibo:how can you leave me like this gege it's all my fault
Mom dad zhan ge also leave me he write in this dairy that he love me then why he leave me

Mom: he just misunderstood he will come after knowing the truth we will tell him, he will come for you yibo

Dad:yes yibo your mom (zhan's mom) was right he will come back soon

Haikuan:sorry bodi it all my fault if I didn't come back it's not happened

Yibo: no ge you are my cousin it's not your fault it's all my fault

Yibo: mom dad will you help me if I want to do something ?

Mom and dad: yes yibo we will

Yibo with smirk : I know how to get you back gege

Everyone looked at yibo no one can say what's going on his mind

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