The lake of the dragonflies. [seongjoong, ateez]

Selfishness.

"Where you high?"

"Kinda?"

"What do you mean kinda? Yes or no."

"Did I smoke a joint beforehand? Yeah.
Was I high? Not really...?"

"I guess it makes sense,
are you a heavy weight?"

"Not with alcohol but I seem to be
one with weed."

"..."

I said nothing because I didn't know what
to say next. I feared my words wouldn't
be the right ones, the ones he needed.

"How was the date?"

"Horrible..."

"Was she really mad at you?"

"Yeah, yelled and screamed at me."

"Deserved, though."

"Kinda..."

"How do you just always forget?"

"..."

"One doesn't just... forget about their
date!"

"I know! I know!
But listen up, whatever I do... I just
forget about it. Not on purpose! But-"

"Don't put me as an excuse again."

He knew my words before they
left my mouth.

"<I was with you so time ran out> bullshit."

"But-"

"But nothing! How about when
you're not with me? You still
forget."

"..."

"Are you really forgetting about it?
Something just tells me you don't
wanna be with her."

"..."

"Fucking tell her goddammit!
Don't be fucking selfish and leave
the girl with something she doesn't
deserve.
She's been nothing but sweet to you."

"..."

He placed a hand on my shoulder.

"But it's ok dude... I understand, it's hard to hurt people."

I didn't need to say a word for him
to understand me.

"But if you don't hurt her now,
you will do worse later. And trust me
it's not what you fucking want!"

"Ok..."

"Now turn that frown upside down!
At this time of the year, dragonflies
start to come to the lake."

"Oh! Is it May already?"

"Yeap, hope we can see a red one
this year too."

"I really hope so, it's tradition."

"Exactly."

We were used to sit for hours,
talk for hours.