So, most of you have probably seen this coming for a while now.
I haven't posted since the beginning of this year, and no matter how desperately I wanted to finish this story, even just to say I did it, it's realistically not happening, and I'm so sorry.
It is quite late for me, but I'll post a description of how this story was meant to end just so your aware in a few hours (like 10-12).
To give you all some closure, I watched Dream's new video ('The Truth' one) and it made me actually get up and write this, something I'd been meaning to for months.
To be honest, and I'm sure your expecting this as its the same old ending I've seen so many times myself, but I've been drifting out of the fandom for a while. When the SMP ended, I think I started to let go of it all, all my writing and ideas became more OCC than character based (even though they mostly were before as well), and I stopped watching streams and videos.
It all kind of got worse when all the drama with Dream started, and all my favourite creators started pitting against each other, and I just wanted a break from it all.
Also, I showed a friend of mine this story, and it made me realise how uncomfortable I actually was about the story being shown outside of anonymous strangers. People I know irl follow this account, have read my stories, and I just started to get paranoid that everyone I interacted with was someone I knew irl talking to me just to mess with me and laugh behind me back at how enthusiastic I was and still am about these people and these stories.
I'm not really in the fandom anymore, and yet its all anyone thinks of me. I'm sorry for everyone just joining the fandom because I imagine this is how most ongoing stories are ending. I wish all the lovely people who've followed me on here, sent me kind messages, replied in comments on other works to me, and just generally been a support while I was writing this all the best, because you were all truly amazing, and it has been amazing to be part of this community for the short while I was.
To make a few things clear before I leave:
- I don't really ship anyone in this fanfic that I shipped anymore, and while I don't think its necessarily bad to do so unless it becomes obsessive, it mildly weirds me out how obsessed I was, particularly as a 13/14/15 year old
- I still support Dream, and have throughout this whole thing. I've mentioned once on here that I did so, before I started to drift out, and I stand by it, and will continue to do so. A lot of this shit that's been alleged has no evidence, and honestly never has.
- On top of this, I still stand with most of the rest of the old SMP. Some of them I think aren't particularly who I thought they were, so I don't really want to stand by them, but 90% of them have only grown since leaving, finding their own passions without feeling tied down by the DSMP and I love that for them. (e.g. Tommy and his shows, Tubnet, QSMP, Wilbur and Lovejoy)
- I'm going to remain active on here, even just mildly. I'm going to stop posting content, yes, but that won't mean I'm leaving. I'm sorry to anyone who asked for anything (Discord invites, writing advice etc.) that I didn't respond to, but if you want advice now, I'm happy to give it, as my writings very much improved. The stories are going to stay up, as will the account, just be notified that they're all not being updated anymore.
To the lovely person who saw me through a comment section a few times then proceeded to follow me, you're truly amazing, simply because you brought me back to this fandom and gave me even just a little hope to start watching things like QSMP and Tommy's vlogs again, Dreams new content, all those things. You didn't even mean to, but it meant the world to me.
Goodbye my lovelies, have wonderful, happy lives, and I love you all so very much ❤️
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I Spy a Liar
Fanfiction~ Permantly Discontinued ~ DSMP Spy au ~ 'A puff of smoke was blown from the raven-hair's mouth as he dropped the cigarette stub clasped between his teeth onto the ground, crushing it beneath his feet. "That break-up broke both of us, Karl." He mut...
