Broken But Beautiful ( completed )

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Shehnaaz's pov

When he give me keys I ran towards my washroom....

after the pregnancy I am really finding difficulty holding back my bladder

I changed my dress n wear comfortable clothes but my mind is stuck to all incidents happened at simran's house

I feel my eyes are slowly filling wid water

the guilt of pushing him to do this thing is eating up my mind

n another thing I imagine all this things wid only one man of my life....who left me alone....how would I give his place to anyone....not even for any lies...or drama

all things happened till now started flashing infront of my eyes

how I degarde my parents how I am troubling him everything just started making me feel more guilty n upset

I sit on the edge of my bed put aside my dress which I am trying to fold from last 15 minutes

I cover my face in my palms n cry

yes I am feeling like to cry loudly.....just feeling like to ozze out all my emotions outside....cry untill all tears dried up

may be hormones effect but in that moment that thing didn't come in my mind....

I wipe my face after crying 10 minutes more n went outside thinking he must be hungry....it's almost dinner time...

I go n started to arrange pillows coz I saw him sitting in balcony from corner of my eyes... don't want to face him now...he will give me pampering n I will again feel more guilty

his care...his pampering I find its out responsibility n find its may be troubling him...if not now then may be in future....how will man can just put his life aside n give life to other....he is so selfless...sukesh must be lucky having him as his brother

he is ready to give a precious tag of his wife to any random girl to just save her respect

I respect him alot n that increasing day by day...

I heard him Calling me n I try to avoid

I just don't want to let him know my emotional weak side

but where I am thinking to fight... this man effortlessly make me submissive in a seconds

I spill out everything...n trust me after telling him I feel relax....

he just wrap his hands around me it's so smoothing for my soul....

whenever he holds my hands..play wid my fingers....touch my feet

I feel something in my heart.... always.... always he make me feel like this...

n I again hate myself for feeling for any other than my late love....I feel I am cheating on him

I tried to made my heart stop to feel this for amazing man like him....but I failed everytime

I sometimes think his wife must be so lucky to have him....many times I think why my sukesh was not like sidharth....he never behave like this wid me...the way sidharth does....

he respects me...he care for me...ok ok I know not for me but for baby but still he do....

he gently talks wid me which I never felt wid sukesh

he didn't even entangled his fingers lovingly wid me....nor look wid love filled eyes....

huuuhhhhh again I am comparing him wid sukesh....

I need to stop

I served our dinner n put on dinning table

when I confess him about my future he unwrap his hand n went in his room coz of some important call