29 Dec 2023
Why am I always the one to blame? Why is it me? I hate this deep feeling inside of me. Please I want to be happy. Real happy. I am always happy to people but they don't know. They shouldn't know. Their words are not helping me. Family is not the cure, Friends are. But they don't know. They wouldn't care about it. They will just leave me. Like I am a backup character only. Like I am their puppet, being control. I wanted to tell someone about it but no one will understand except for Yuri but he isn't with me. When I am talking with him, I feel real happiness like I am in love with him but he doesn't feel the same as he likes boys. I am scared to talking about my real feeling to anyone even my family. I hate this pain. I HATE IT!
Will I be free?
