oblivious | nahoya kawata

twenty-eight

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"I'LL GO TO HER APARTMENT AND SEE" angry nodded at his brother's statement, they both were worried about your sudden disconnection, they wouldn't even let you take a day off unless your sick, that too, they'll come over to your apartment with medicines and homemade food, usually angry never really stays away from you like how a 5 year old never leaves his mom alone.

smiley wanted to check you today, because you left your apartment key and you weren't answering your phone either, he thought of all odd possibilities of you getting killed by some serial killer, or doing something to yourself or basically you getting diagnosed with cholera to the point you can't even get up, though you take care of angry and smiley at times they had your back through so many things all these years filling up the space where you needed someone by your side the most after all.

as nahoya was driving, he thought you would be better off with someone that sees you, take cares of you and listens to you and makes you feel heard, why couldn't it be him? because he's not even ready to kiss you when he got the chance, to the time when you two were alone in the car —

"man, it's raining so bad I can't see anything" smiley said caressing the back of his neck as he stretched and relaxed with you on the passenger seat, "I know, right? that's why I said I'll go by my own and now see? angry's alone at the shop, you didn't have to do it—" oh, he realised certain things by your words, he felt like your attention was more on his brother than you, not that he bothered but sometimes he wanted to be with you alone, he thought it was platonic and it is.

"he's skilled y/n and has the normal so-called chef with him who does nothing but louch around" you chuckled at his statement as you nodded, it was raining super heavy so the road wasn't clearly visible even with the wipers on, you two decided to wait on the side in the street, you let out a sigh as you hugged yourself to find the comfort in the silent chaos, "are you cold?" you gave him a side-eye as if it isn't that obvious, as he laughed at your response "here" he said as he removed his jacket "it's fine smiley, don't try to be cheeky" you said hiding the fact you're flushed even though you were screaming internally.

you kept on refusing to get his jacket "no no no it's fine, I'll be alright smiley! stop—" you stopped when you realised he was leaning in and was few inches away from your face, your heart was racing to the mountain and down and you were sure he could hear the thumps your heart made if it isn't for the raining outside, "wait, I'll put it on for you myself or you wouldn't just listen" he chuckled and tried to wrap it around your shoulders, he smelled so good, like cotton candy and baby powder.

as if time struck, nahoya slowed down his actions when he felt your eyes burning on him and this bitch only realised now on how close he was with you, why was he so oblivious? you just wanted him to kiss you or stay like this forever, your eyes couldn't resist but run down to his soft lips as he did the same, if you weren't wrong, he gulped and felt him moving closer, you thought you were dreaming.

but I'm not the one for her.

he pulled back himself and cleared his throat before bringing back his smile "I hope you aren't cold anymore y/n" he laughed and you just sat there spacing out, thousands of thoughts crumbling your skull literally, maybe he doesn't like you like that? and hence, your feelings for him was kept a secret just like that scared of rejection, on the other hand, you remembered things you didn't wanted to, "...-/n!" you snapped back jerking slightly, "..yeah?" you stuttered not really being there, "are you still cold?"

"no... not at all"

— maybe he should've kissed you right there and made you his, but he was certain you don't like him like that and he thought of himself as not the one for you, he was flawed in many ways and he was aware of it himself, you went through enough already and he didn't wanted to see you hurt anymore, and you were getting older. if he saw you with anyone else, there's only one person he wanted you to be with,

"souya will take good care of her.."