𝐒𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐒 𝐓𝐎 𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐁𝐄𝐀𝐔𝐓𝐈𝐅𝐔𝐋

Mental Cage

I have always been a absent friend
I never denied that
But no one asked what lead to it
How suddenly a golden ray of sunrise
Was a grey thunderstorm
How hard it to fake it all
And when someone came close
It was hard to let those guards lose
It was never traumatic
But it was no less
Everyone asked how poetry came so easily to me
But they never understand that it wasn't poetry but pieces of me that on one saw
I try hard and harder to be the best of me
But my guards restrained me
It was all the mental cages
whose keys I never had
I do try but I always disappoint
What do i do these are the parts of me
That i never understood
And then i let them close
And all they did was broke me a lil more without me noticing
When the lil became something unturned
I was no one 
Then i tired to balance it all
And here i stand
With nothing left to speak
And everyone disappointed in me again
And i feel that the circle i never ceases to complete and left on loop
And what left to cry over the spilled milk
It was all me that i never understood.