Friday January 20 th 2024
** today the kids don't have school so everyone is staying home, Everyone has an okay night of sleep, the kids have woken up several times being scared that someone is going to enter their house. Carina woke up and reassured them that they were safe and that they had nothing to worry about, the three teenagers were now in the police station and they are not going anywhere else then prison. She also thought of what Maya said yesterday, " I don't.. they are... " she knew exactly what the rest of the sentence was going to be... "not my children" ! She said she forgave her wife for saying that.. but she's deeply offended by that.
She's going to tell Maya ! She has to! **
8h 22 am
Maya : hrmmmm good morning babe.
Carina: hi good morning my beautiful wife! How did you sleep last night?
** both wives kissed each other **
Maya : hemmm I slept well thank you!
And you ?
Carina: I uhhhh I slept on and off.
Maya : was it because of Londyn or Niccolas ?
Carina: no , it's not because of them!
Maya : oh okay.
Carina: I'm not in the mood to talk...
Maya : it's because of what I said about Skylar and Santiago huh?
Carina: siiiii !
Maya : I told you I was sorry about that and obviously didn't mean that babe!
** she started crying Carina left Maya crying a bit, right now she was extremely hurt by those words **
Carina: I know, and I —— I know you weren't expecting to add two more teenagers to our family but babe, they are my children. I am not going to make them leave our house or family. I haven't been part of their lives for twenty two years! TWENTY TWO FUCKING YEARS! And I wasn't expecting them to come back to find me ! But they did, and now they are part of my family, and I thought.. our family. And when I was petrified for them during the invasion all I wanted to do was run through the house and find them, making sure they were safe too ! As they were not upstairs with us! All I needed was for my wife to comfort me and saying " our children are fine "
Maya: I did say that I know they are fine.
Carina: maybe... but when they showed up at our door and said "hi momma it's us , we wanted to get to know you and our siblings. And your wife too". You had the choice to run and leave me, but you didn't. You stayed with me, you got to meet my oldest children and you even defended me towards them, didn't you tell them that you didn't want them to stay they wanted to be in my life and then "stood me up" again because you saw how devastated I was when they did that...
Maya : yes that's right I did tell them that. Because you mean the world to me my love, and I can't witness that again, you broke down into a million pieces, you didn't eat anything for three weeks after they stood you up at the cafe ,
Carina: exactly, and hearing you say " I don't care... they aren't my.... " really didn't help.
I told you I would take a bullet for Lorenzo, Chloe, Violet, Scarlett, Alessandro, Londyn , Niccolas, all of our children, that also included Skylar and Santiago . And I also said I would take a bullet for you. I still stand by that. Because I fucking love you my Bambina . Remember I didn't find my home until I met you. You are my home.
Maya: okay , I understand that so where does that leave us ? Do you want to get a divorce? Do you want me to leave our home and go live somewhere else? Is that what you want , need? Until you can forgive me for real !
Carina : what? all I want is for you to accept my two adult children, and help me raise them with our children, and you're literally pregnant with our twelve child...
** Carina was devastated, she didn't think Maya would suggest that they would divorce, but she said that word... She couldn't take it back **
I never thought that you would pronounce the D word! But you did !
Maya : well... I don't know what to do now because I said I didn't mean to say that, I was scared of getting hurt or even worse being shot by three dumb teenagers who had nothing better to do than to invade our home and potentially scar our children! Notice how I keep saying
" our children," "Our home" ! I don't want to be apart from you, or from the children but I will let you decide how you want to resolve this situation and I will forever respect your decision.
