My life is hell my mom is a witch and I don't like my life am trying not to give up but it's hard for me to do and I can't believe my dad let my dad 2 February my hot tall ex is coming to visit me it seems like he's coming at two or 3 o'clock. But I need to get over him because life goes on and it's hard for me to let go of someone I loved and he cheated on me with another girl that was my best friend
I know it's hard to say to myself but I'm only 16 years old in life is far away from me sometimes I feel like I let my God down and I never let him down . I had three dogs and a cat my first dog is a great Dane he's name is Apollo , and my second dog name is Coco she's a Yorkie, my last dog name is Bella she is a Yorkie , I have a cat his name is baba he's a black cat and I give my cat and my Great Dane away because we had to move do you a bigger house small yard I need for my two dogs left I miss my cats I miss my great Dane
Am I live is very difficult because I was very young my brothers do not live with me we were separated from each other and I was the mother in the house to take care of my brothers my mum and her boyfriend is abusive and he was never my father my mum lied to me when I saw her 2020 The last time I saw her because she lied to me in my face and said her boyfriend was my dad.
I know it is on fair of me do you hate him But I can't let my feelings get in my way anymore of him I've tried to get away from him as possible I never knew My dad when I was a child and I still don't know my dad but when I'm 18 years old I will go find my dad and let him know that I'm still here for him even though he throw me away because I want Him to be My dad but fathers that throw away their kids is not good fathers but I still one seem to be my dad .
I've tried to get answers but the people I'm living with and for my real mum but it's something they do not tell me I wish I knew but he never rings a bell . i'm sad because everyone I talk to you don't believe me when I said I'm adopted and it's hard to talk about it I am pushing me to do it and it's not fair for me to push myself to talk to somebody about my life but I think the whole world needs to know my life .
Because I'm getting tired of people saying my life is easy it was never easy and it still will never be easy it's my life I don't want anybody I was doing it for me But I am sad and in the depression is never easy because I can end my life just like that one trigger one bullet in the head but and I can I do that.
This is my life that I was writing about and I only finishing it up when it happens more I'm gonna put more do it I love my brothers I love my sisters I'm going Saturday loud tomorrow maybe to my sister that's having a baby it's a girl and name is Jolene and I love my sister and I miss her a lot
So I'm looking forward it to see how my future looks like I'm sad I'm happy I'm pretty sometimes I feel like I'm not good enough for anyone to be there first girlfriend I I don't think a lot of myself I am not trying to make me happy I making everyone around me happy so for me I'm trying to make everyone ounce in my life I put everyone else in my life before me .
My story don't have a happy ending
For now it's hard for me to do this but for now I'm focusing on what's best for me and putting me fixed now before anyone else I'm gonna make me happy today and do what makes me happy it's me
I am her everyone else says I am upset for a fake people in my life at that with me I'm not good enough just a lot of things really that's going through my mind and all the things that somebody else is it to me is it running I said through my head boys I went out with what's not good for me and I think I never will be good enough for everyone else so I'm waiting for my prins two came to save me out of my Dark hole I fall into The mad and sad I have it's hard to get over it when people tell you you're not good enough for anyone
But now I'm focusing on myself
