My Testimony

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I couldn't care less about God,

Because after all what had he ever done for me?

I knew he existed and I knew he worked miracles I saw Him do it countless times for various people

There was a time where I hoped and hoped and yearned and yearned for a miracle as such to make its way into my life I prayed and prayed for miracles. Were my prayers answered? No

So I decided to be petty 

If He wouldn't answer my prayers why should I obey Him right? 

I thought I was right then I came across something, a video of sorts...

There was a teenage boy probably 16 or 17 and he said something that made me think

"My friends ask me all the time why I waste my time praying and worshipping a God that doesn't exist? What if you die and realize it was all a lie and no God or Jesus came to take you and I  answered, if I were to die right now and according to your logic no one comes for me then I have nothing to lose, according to your beliefs I would go on to live in my next life with excess good karma because I'd have lived a good and kind life. But what would happen if God came and if everything I believed was real and because of belonging to the world I sacrifice all of that for short term pleasure? I would have sacrificed my whole life and wasted everything I am. So, I'd rather serve God and have a chance to live in paradise than serve the devil and be damned to eternal suffering." - the boy in the video

This made a lot of sense to me it really did so I decided in that moment to start trying to get closer to God, but then I realized I didn't know how I was going to do that

So I started with music 

I started listening to music that had sensible meanings it was the best I could do at that moment

And after that I started to listen to only Gospel music that was tough it took about three to four months trying my best to get mostly Gospel music into my head 

It was really tough

I continued this for a while I don't really remember the time frame

Then all of a sudden something amazing happened