Summer Lovin'

26-I'm Sorry

You could say things really escalated. I was squished in the back of a cop car with Belly, Jeremiah, Conrad and Steven.

Belly was crying, Conrad and Jere were still fighting and Steven was just looking out the window.

We were a mess.

The cop was taking us to the Fisher's house. Conrad had tried to get us out of trouble by saying how his mom was Susannah Fisher. I thought it would work, Susannah is like a celebrity in Cousins.

Unfortunately it didn't. I guess finding 5 underage teenagers who have been drinking is like a crime or something.

We pulled onto their street and it felt like I became completely sober. Thinking about what the adults are going to say about this made me become sick to my stomach. That could have just been alcohol. But all I knew is that we are screwed. 

Jeremiah must have felt my nervousness because he put his hand on my thigh and began to rub it. It did calm me down a little bit but I still felt like I was gonna throw up.

"Okay, get out kids." The officer said. We all got out, our heads down and looking defeated. The cop knocked on the door and Laurel answered. I was really hoping that Susannah would have answered. "Hello, officer." She noticed all of us standing behind him and I saw her face change from confusion to angry.

I'm honestly terrified.

The officer explained everything and was now walking back to his car. Laurel opened the door for all of us to come inside. She looked like she could have killed us on the spot.

She closed the door, "What the hell is wrong with you guys!?" We all stared at her blankly, "Well someone better have an explanation for this."

"Laurel, we didn't cause any trouble-" Conrad started but got interrupted by Steven, "Mom we didn't even do anything."

Laurel shook her head "You guys are so lucky your family is your family. I can't believe you guys were so irresponsible!"

That's when Susannah and my mom came into the entry way. Shit. I forgot my mom was here. "What's going on?" Susannah asked confused seeing all of us getting lectured by Laurel.

"A police officer just dropped off these kids." Laurel said putting her hands on her hips. "What?" Susannah and my mom said in unison. 

"Apparently for underage drinking." Laurel continued. "Mom nothing bad happened we were literally in the car to come home." Jere said slightly slurring his words. "Jere...you guys know better." Susannah said in a calm voice.

I was too afraid to look up, I was staring down at my feet. Susannah and Laurel have never yelled at me before so I was feeling extremely guilty. I did not want to see the look on my moms face either so, I was forcing myself to keep looking down. I glanced at Belly who had a tear streaked face.

After hearing more of what Laurel had to say my mom finally spoke up, "I'm sorry that my daughter was involved in this, but I think we'll go." I finally looked up and saw my mom walking towards me.

I glanced at Jere and he gave me a worried look.

I didn't even have time to process what was happening when my mom grabbed my arm and pulled me out of the Fisher's house.

"I cannot believe you." "Mom-" I started, "I don't even want to hear it. I've had it with you Kirsten, and now you're embarrassing me."

We walked in our house and she basically threw me inside. "Getting involved with the cops! Kirsten that is so irresponsible! And for underage drinking!" She slams the door and I flinch at how loud it was.

I didn't have any words to say to her. I mean, we got caught and there really was no excuse. Tears started to fill in my eyes. "I'm sorry." I choked out. I'm not even sure why I was crying.

She looked at me, a look I couldn't recognize. Tears slowly fell from my eyes and down my face. "I didn't mean to embarrass you."

She stood there staring at me and then walked over and hugged me. Which was almost insane. I can't remember the last time my mom has hugged me. I was hesitant to hug back. "I know." She said calmly, I then wrapped my arms around her. This affection from my mom only made me cry harder.

"We've had a hard summer." She said rubbing my back. "Yeah we have." She pulled away but not taking her hands off of me. I looked at her and she had tears in her eyes. "You okay?" She asked, I nodded, not knowing what to say.

"Kirsten, I know I haven't been the best mom to you since...your dad." Tears fell from her eyes. "And I regret that everyday."

I stared up at my mom but I didn't recognize her. "I haven't been the best daughter either." She wiped away my tears and hugged me again.

"It's been really hard." I said fully prepared to dive right into the topic that my family has been avoiding. My dad.

*****

Me and my mom were up talking all night. About everything. There were a lot of tears but we also smiled and laughed. I felt like weight had been lifted off of my chest and I could finally breathe again. It was refreshing.

I was really eager to see what would happen from here on out. How would mine and my moms relationship be? How is our family dynamic going to be? I feel like it can only go up from here.

Right now I was sitting on my bed thinking about everything that has happened today. What a crazy day. I glanced at the clock and it was 2:48am and I'm not tired at all. I got onto my phone to find a bunch of text messages from Jere.

Jere: Hey are you okay?
Jere: I'm so sorry!! We shouldn't have gone to that party I feel awful
Jere: are you mad?
Jere: are you alive??

I decided to call him. Hopefully he hasn't gone to bed yet.

Hey!" He answered on the first ring. "Hey" I said feeling a sense of comfort to hear his voice. "Are you okay?" "I'm honestly great." "Really? I would of thought for sure your mom would have killed you."

I chuckled, because that's the outcome I expected too. "I thought so too, but we actually had a long talk about our relationship and my dad. I think me and mom are weirdly good?" I questioned still not believing it myself.

"Damn for real? That's so nice to hear, I'm happy for you." I smiled, and he continued, "It sounds like your night ended up better than ours over here did." "What happened?"

"Laurel really chewed us out, like big time, even my mom was mad which doesn't happen very often." I began to think, I don't know if I've ever seen Susannah mad before.

"We all have to do some stupid chore around the house for the rest of summer and I got stuck with cleaning the pool!" I laughed at this, "Kirsten this isn't funny that's the worst one!" He said as we both shared a laugh.

Me and Jeremiah began to debrief and talk about everything. We were up until 4:00am. But there's no one else I'd rather be up that late with.

A/N: This chapter was a little crazy but I felt like it was needed. I'm trying to wrap things up because I only have a couple chapters left!!!