Their untold secrets

Ch. 1 (im sorry)

¡!TRIGGER WARNINGS!¡
(A warning!! This book will contain Topics such as substance abuse, abuse, sh, attempts.)

(Sh is a thing that may pop up a lot in this book and some scenes may be more detailed than others! So please keep this in mind!)

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The door of the eerie, empty apartment opened.
Revealing a drenched brunette in black formal wear.

The rain poured even harder as the brunettes slid down the door, hugging his knees.

He was at a loss... the one man who understood and knew him, was gone. The person who didn't see him as the demon prodigy, has left this earth, and will never return.

The man who died? He was known as
oda sakunosuke, this man was the only one who truly understood the brunette.

To him, the brunette was not only a friend or drinking buddy, nor was he just a coworker.
He saw him as a person- a person with a sharp witted mind like a steel trap.  But- he's just a child━a sobbing child abandoned in the darkness of a world far emptier than the one that can be seen

His last words to the brunette, are all that played in his mind. "You told me that you might find a reason to live if you lived in a world of violence and bloodshed. You won't find it. You must know that already."

The brunette couldn't believe that he was actually gone.  He knew from the very beginning, that he was going to lose everything.

As he sat on the cold wooden floor, He pondered.

' you're supposed to cry when your father dies. And yet.,. No tears have come. Odasaku, why. You said I was your friend, so why would you hurt your friend? You said you knew me better than anyone else... so why did you leave?'

The brunette knew these  questions would go unanswered. There is no way for these questions to be answered, after all the only person who could answer them is now gone.

The brunette Slowly stood up as he went to the kitchen, reaching into a cabinet. he had pulled out a bottle of whiskey, popping the lid off and taking sips out of the bottle. Walking over to the sofa and flopping himself down.

As the night went on, more bottles piled up by the sofa. The brunette was never known for getting drunk. No one has ever seen him in such a state. And yet here he is completely wasted, trying his best to drown out all the voices in his head.

He couldn't feel a thing... only humans do. Only humans are allowed to feel such emotions. And the brunette here, is not one and never has been.
He is simply no longer human. He's never been under the category of human being. Humans have emotions, they express things, that is what makes them human.

The unanswered question, who is this brunette lying on the sofa?

His name...Dazai Osamu, or better known as the demon prodigy or one half of Soukoku-double black- an 18 year old boy, who is cunning, intelligent, cold, and has no reason for living.
The 18-year-old boy is the mafia's youngest executive, and is known for bringing in half of the profit. He's obsessed with death... and has been for a while now. His hope? To find a reason to live.

The next morning, he awoke with a hangover. But the one thing prominent in his mind is the image of his friend dying in his arms.

He decided it would be best if he followed his friends final wish- to be on the side of good, to help out some orphans, and make his life a little brighter-

The only regret the brunette will have with this decision... is leaving his partner behind.

His partner, Nakahara Chuuya. The other half of Soukoku, they're connected with a far deeper connection, then just bonds or friendship. They are one soul in two bodies. And they will forever remain double black.

The two have been through so much together, far more than what you would think. Their life risking missions, the trust they have built- that can never be broken. Their connection is far stronger than they would like to admit.

Dazai couldn't bear the thought of losing him too. He knew the ginger hated him... but he couldn't help but feel the connection they had. They were the unstoppable duo, that no one could defeat.
He will miss the ginger dearly, but he knows... if something happens to him too... he will never be the same.

So before finally, leaving, he left a note and flowers for the ginger in front of his apartment. As a way to say his final goodbye... and apologize.

For all the trouble and pain, he's caused the shorter. He knew chuuya would never forgive him for this, but he was okay with that fact. He just knew whatever happens, he could not lose the last person he cared about. And definitely not because of his own stupidity.

Dazai..He's found his  reason... he just doesn't know it or accept it.

His reason?
Was the short tempered, idiotic, chibiko, Nakahara Chuuya.

This is why it hurt so much to leave him

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