Versification of my soul

Again?

27 June 23

Finally let it all out, huh?
Finally slapped me
Finally hit me in the face
She finally snapped at me

No one knows my urges
To harm myself
To kill myself
To see blood coming out of me

Has physical torture been added?
To my vast list of experiences
Emotional, mental, and what not?
I'm exhausted now, tired, and fucked

She'll never regret it,
I'll never forget it.

Should I just run away?
Will they be happy?
What about my younger siblings?
Will they be sad? Mourning?

So why do I struggle?
Why do I put so much effort for them?
Why do I kill myself just so they'll live?
Why do my efforts go to waste?

Why do they make me feel
Like I'm a nobody in this house?
Why even call me daughter
If I'll be ignored again?

We are all gonna die
So why don't we try to live happily?
Just bcz they're old and have problems
And we're young and don't know shit

Lucky are those children
Whose problems get acknowledged
Whose feelings get shared
Those who live happy with parents.