Dandelions - Ruth B
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"We flirted, we texted, we laughed, we cried, and we stayed up just to talk to each other for hours. We said I love you and now we don't even know what we're doing with our lives.
It isn't our fault, that's just how fate works, and it's funny. If we were to go back and change what happened, I don't know how it would've been right now.
Deep down our souls, we both know what we want, but are too afraid to act on it.
The older you get, you realise it's not about who've known you the longest, it's about who've made you feel appreciated, loved and safe. I thank you for making me feel the same.
When that problem with that boy came, I knew who to text first. I just knew that, I'd somehow be safe if I confide in you; and I was right. You showed me how a real man protects a girl and it's kind of attractive.
It's really crazy how even after everything we've both been through, at the end of the day, it's you for me.
Call me delusional, but I still have your letters and I stupidly smile whenever I read them. We both were young and so in love, and believed in each other.
I know what you're trying to do now. You want me to hate you so that we'll never be together again. You're stupid if you think you'll get rid of me that easily, babe.
Yes, I know. I know I'm not supposed to come back to you but trust me, I tried to forget about you, about us; Also believe me when I say I can't.
I just hate the fact that you get antisocial for some reason and not text me for days on end. If there's something I did wrong, just communicate. Tell me what I did wrong and let me correct myself.
I'm just scared that if I give up on you, I might lose you again. I lost you once already and I'm not ready to take chances. Sometimes we don't understand each other but that's what life is, right? We'll get it right once.
I know most of the times we're toxic as fuck, but you have to know that I'm so stupidly, irresistibly and immensely in love with you.
If you see me as a friend, I'll love you as a friend. If I'm more than a friend to you, I'll love you as such. I'll love you however you want, babe.
We'll be fine. Just open up, please?
On this special day, as you man up, know that there's a girl out there who's willing to give her whole heart, nerve and sinew to just be with you.
It's okay if you don't read this. I lowkey think you won't. But nevermind; I write to do this.
I'll be with you, stupid. Forever and always."
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-2024
