❤️ You too, Hyung [Completed]

JK

I fled back to my room, stunned over what hyung had done. The oddest part was that I actually didn't dislike it. It definitely caught me by surprise, but I didn't hate it.

He's supposed to be like a brother to me. Why was I feeling otherwise in my heart?

These thoughts swallowed me throughout the night. The next day, I woke up to get ready for concert rehearsals again. J Hope was going to join us this time. I went out for breakfast and realized that RM and J Hope were missing. Jin told us that they had gone ahead first to do a primary sound check. I nodded.

Finally, we made our way to the stadium. Even though it was fun, it was still gruelling work. We sang through our songs, practised choreography, and tried out some new stunts and gimmicks. I don't know if it was me being overly sensitive, but I realized that J Hope hyung didn't acknowledge me much at all. He did say hello and all, but other than that, we had very little interactions. It was like as if I didn't exist in his radar. He hung out with Suga and Jimin, particularly the whole day. We broke for lunch around 2 pm. I went around handing out the lunch boxes. J Hope was wrapping his hand when I went up to him with his food.

"Hyung, I brought your lunch for you. Here you go."

"Thank you, JK. Just leave it here. I will have it soon."

I nodded and placed it on the chair for him.

"Can I sit with you to have lunch, hyung?"

"Sure, go ahead. You don't have to ask."

I sat down next to him on his right. He took his lunch and started eating, commenting as usual on how the food was yummy and all. He was being his usual cheery self, but something was a little off. He didn't quite look at me in the eye and barely paid any attention to me.
Once lunch was over, he took off, going off to hang out with Jimin. I watched as he chatted with him by the podium. V came to join me on the seat.

"Are you ok, Kookie? You seem a little distracted and sad."

"No, Tae. I'm ok. It's just, is it me, or did Hobi hyung barely spend any time with me today?"

"Well, you two have been practically joined at the hips the last week, but today, he's been with Jimin and Suga an awful lot. Maybe it's just conincidental. It's not like him to be avoiding you. Why would he even do that?"

V was right. Why would hyung do that? I cleaned my mouth as I drank my water, and that's when it struck me. Was he avoiding me because of the kiss? I sighed as I looked at him. He had seen me but turned away to go talk to Suga instead.

So it was true. He was avoiding me. I tried to carry on with practice as usual post lunch. Everything was going well until the tail ended when Hobi was instructed to carry me as part of our performance, but he managed to speak to the director and changed it to him carrying Jimin instead. I kept watching them during the dance , and I ended up messing up my steps thrice in a row. J Hope got so upset with me that he scolded me on the spot.

I stepped back, from the intensity of him scolding me. My eyes watered involuntarily, and I just asked for a quick break and went off to the trailer. I could hear the others nagging at J Hope.

A little while later, I was about to leave the trailer when I came face to face with him.

"I'm sorry for scolding you. I just want you to do well. Why do you keep messing up the dance steps? It's really unlike you."

I kept quiet. He kept persisting until I finally snapped.

"Then why are you avoiding me the whole day? Is it because of the kiss? Why do you keep hanging out with Jimin and Suga and not me? Don't I matter too? Will it hurt you to be my partner for the dance? Why does it have to be Jimin?"

J Hope was stunned by my outburst. I just pushed past him and went back to stage. Nobody else was privy to our squabble. We all went back to rehearsing as usual. I tried my damnest hard to focus, and by the time we wrapped up practice, it was 10pm. It had been a good 12 hours, and I was exhausted.

We all piled into the company van that took us back home. I chose to sit with V and ended up falling asleep on his shoulders. I was so exhausted that the boys had trouble waking me up. I vaguely heard people discussing, and finally, someone carried me. I opened my eyes in shock and was stunned to see RM carrying me.

"Sleep. I will carry you in."

I burst out laughing and got off, thanking RM hyung for his kind act. I collapsed on my bed the minute I got into the house. Jin walked past and nagged at me to go shower. I hummed in response, but his indoor slippers came flying at my face, and I knew he meant business. I quickly scampered off to shower and came out, feeling a bit more refreshed. I went to get a snack from the kitchen when J Hope hyung came to the kitchen too. I just nodded at him, took my snack, and walked past him when he held onto my wrist.

I turned to see his hand on mine, and he clasped it even more tightly. I tried to tug it away, and he refused to let go. I looked up at him. He mouthed "Sorry".

That was all it took for me to turn back and just hug him tightly. He was my hyung, my senior, my elder, my friend, my teammate, my confidante. It stung he avoided me, but all was good now. He held onto me tightly, too.

"Sorry, Kookie, for making you cry. Forgive me?"

I nodded.

"Also, sorry about yesterday. I shouldn't have kissed you. I'm sorry for that, too."

This time, I pulled away, looking at him.

"Was that kiss a mistake to you?"

J Hope fell incredibly silent and didn't reply to me. I repeated myself twice, but he didn't answer. I finally muttered, "I didn't feel like it was a mistake, though."

He looked at me stunned. It had taken a lot out of me to confess that. Now, if only he was honest too.