✯𝐇𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐭𝐨𝐧 𝐎𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬✯

𐮙𝐒𝐮𝐜𝐤 𝐢𝐭 𝐮𝐩.𐮙 (𝐨𝐧𝐞 𝐬𝐢𝐝𝐞𝐝 𝐋𝐚𝐦𝐬)

𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆𝐒:
-angst

-bad grammar

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𝐋𝐀𝐔𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐒 𝐏𝐎𝐕:

Hamiltons big wedding day...Wooooooo. Don't you just hate how the guy you've liked for so long is getting married, especially when you're the best man. Just me?

I looked upon Hamilton, looking at him in his suit seeing him gaze at himself in the mirror. A chuckle escaped my lips seeing his nervous expression

"Nervous?" I asked Alexander, approaching him and putting a hand on his shoulder

Hamilton just sighed and nodded "It's just so..Weird. In a good way..I've been dreaming about this day ever since I was a child and just..Boom. It's here now?"

I chuckled, putting my hand on his hand to ruffle his hair but I decide not to last minute. I wouldn't wanna ruin his hair..Haha. So instead I just pat his head awkwardly "I'm sure you're gonna do amazing man. Eliza's a lucky woman" I said. A really lucky woman indeed..I thought to myself before shaking it off

"It's more like I'm the lucky man..She's..Incredible." Hamilton said, his tone clearly full of love. I narrowed my eyes at this and I just laughed off, hiding my hurt expression, secretly wishing he had said that to me. I brush it off as I stand up with him, grabbing his shoulders and looking into his eyes

"Look man, I could never be prouder than you. You get out there and you marry that woman." I said, making an effort to make my voice cheery.

I watched a soft smile form on Hamiltons lips. He hugged me tightly, whispering in my ear "Thank you John. You're the bestest 𝐟𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐝 ever."

I would've smiled, I would've laughed. I would've done anything but feel tears well up in my eyes. I tried to hide it, I really did but it's impossible. Why do I have to hide my feelings? Why is his happiness so important to me? Why couldn't my title in his life be anything above "best friend?" I wanted to cry in that moment, but I knew he would worry. So I just sucked it up and smiled at him

"Thank you."

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𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄𝐒𝐊𝐈𝐏
𝐚𝐟𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐞𝐝𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐜𝐞𝐫𝐞𝐦𝐨𝐧𝐲
𝐋𝐀𝐔𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐒 𝐏𝐎𝐕:

I watched as Hamilton kissed his bride, Elizabeth, a round of applause erupted throughout the room. Smiles, cheers, laughter. I had forced a smile through my tears. I wished to myself that I was Elizabeth, wishing I was the one Hamilton was kissing. I know it's a horrible thought, I know it's unhealthy to think this with a now married man. But I truly can't help it. 𝐈 𝐥𝐨𝐯𝐞𝐝 𝐡𝐢𝐦 𝐟𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭.

But I'll choose his happiness over mine any day. If it makes him happy then I'll 𝐒𝐮𝐜𝐤 𝐢𝐭 𝐮𝐩.

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𝐒𝐡𝐨𝐫𝐭 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 ! 😭 (I deleted half of it because I didn't like it 😓)

-473 words

𝐓𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐤 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠✫