The Arrangement

Chapter 36 Hope

Anjila

"What? are you sure?! That can't be right Luce I can't be pregnant!" I say freaking the fuck out

There's just no way. But now that I think about it I haven't been on birth control since Jay and I got together. And Jay can't get me pregnant so this means that this is definitely Matt's kid. Fuck!

"See for yourself. It's positive" she says showing me the test which had 2 pink lines. Fuck!

"Let's do another one just to be sure okay" Lucy says handing me another test. She went to stand just outside the door while I peed on it and came back in two minutes later

"It's positive Anj" she says looking at the test then at me "how are you feeling about this?" She asks

"I'm freaking the fuck out Luce! What am I going to do?" I say sighing

"Well what do you want to do?" She asks

"I have no fucking idea Luce. This wasn't supposed to happen. None of this was supposed to happen. And I know Matt's not gonna wanna have anything to do with this kid. God I wish Jay was here. I wish this was her kid. We would be so happy right now" I say crying

"Hey, hey, Listen to me. Right now in this moment this is your kid. Forget about Matt and forget about Jay. What do you want?" She asks

"I have no idea Lucy" I say crying

"How about this, you take a few days to process this and then we book an appointment for a scan next week and you can decide from there?" She asks

"Okay I guess" I say still freaking out

"Hey it's going to be okay. I'm still here and your dad is too. Whatever you decide we are here for you okay?" she says pulling me into a hug

"I miss Jay. I miss her so damn much. I really wish she was here right now. I just want her to hold me" I say

"I know you do. But I guess you're stuck with me now. I can hold you. Come on lets go cuddle on the couch and watch a movie" she says leading me back into the lounge

The entire time we were watching my mind was racing. I can't believe I was so irresponsible. This is exactly what Wynonna was trying to tell me. How could I let this happen? I never meant for any of this to happen. I know that if Jay and I were still together and this was our baby we would have been so happy right now. She would have been so happy. We would be doing this together and it wouldn't feel so scary. But right now I'm all alone. Matt's not going to want to have anything to do with this child. I know that for sure but I guess I should at least let him know about it. This baby does have half of his DNA. I guess in terms of money, with the inheritance this baby would never go without. I would be able to give this kid everything it needs and wants but can I do it? Actually with that inheritance money and those properties and cars I wouldn't have to work ever again. I could live off the inheritance and just rent out one of the properties for a steady income. I could finally just stay home and paint. I could stay home and love and take care of this child. I could employ help if I needed it. I guess it comes down to am I willing to do this? I have always wanted to have a child before 30 and with Jay and I separated I don't know if I will ever have a chance at having a child after this. I guess I'll wait for the scan to decide.

Jay

I was so furious with Anjila. She had the nerve to accuse me of having something going on with Sophie when she was the one who slept with Matt! And not just once she's slept with him multiple times! God I feel like such an idiot. She made a fool of me! I pretty much had to let Abby take over for this session. I was far too furious and I didn't want to take it out on the kids. I'm so glad we agreed to team teach this session. Abby took over with the teaching for the inflation topic we were currently teaching the year 12's and then I guided them towards the activities that were posted on google classroom. Once they had settled in Abby came up to me and asked me if I was okay