Reminiscence - Bill kaulitz

sins

TOMS POV

I ditched the two the second it wasn't my responsibility to take care of her, now my obligation was to find Elora

She's alive I know that now, well

I mean I don't care if she's a vampire, she's still the girl I've always loved but right now I know she needs me the most and I'm scared to see if I let her down... again

I ran out of the house as fast as I could and into the woods trying to find some trace of her

nowhere to be found nor seen

"fuck-" I panted as no matter how many times I circled through the woods, circled through town I couldn't seem to find her, I know what I saw her red eyes that melted to blue at my appearance, as her hair was messed up it was like she had been kept in a time capsule every single detail of her current appearance is identical to the last time I saw her

the last time I saw her human

what has caused her return though? Does Bill's ability cause someone to turn into a vampire as well, that doesn't make sense because it's been about a year since the incident, and only a couple hours ago has Bill interfered with the bad man and that's when the bad man offered to give Bill his ability in which he would be able to turn other people into vampires so that would mean Bill couldn't have been able to turn Elora.

and if he couldn't have then that means there's only one person who could have turned her, the bad man

                               VIOLETS POV

     I'd always been awkward in situations like these, Before I lost my memories I imagined what the next time I would talk to Bill again, what we would talk about how we would look at each other.

Or I thought about how excruciating it would be if he went on to another girl as I avoided his new girlfriend's eye contact to not seem jealous even if all I wanted to do was drag her away from bill

Expect me and Bill aren't saying much at the current moment he has me in his arms as his body is on his bed and his back is against a wall as he holds me

"Are you feeling alright..?" he asked

I stayed silent a bit shocked that he even spoke " Uhm yeah"

he let out a small smile "That's good.."

After that my breathing was the only thing that filled that room, It brought me back to the reality that Bill wasn't human, and the entire time he'd been hiding it from me I knew this meant that he didn't want to hurt me and I should feel safe but no matter what I try to do I cant ease up on it and I hate myself for it.

                               BILLS POV

I'm so close to her right now I feel her warm skin against mine, how much more time do I have with her? I'm scared to see what'll happen when she sees my eye, if she's scared of me already how much worse will it get after that?

She hates what I hide, she begs for honesty and trust and while I know everything about her she knows nothing about me

I watch as she gets up I don't try to stop her though usually I would, playfully of course.

"There was a girl in the forest who attacked me she knew Tom and she attacked me due to her jealousy do you know her?" she asks

...Elora attacked Violet?

"No I don't know about her Tom never told me he had a girlfriend" I responded lying because in truth I killed Elora but Violet can't know that.

Violet believed my words as her body language got more comfortable "Do you think she'll come back to attack me again?"

Yes

"No, but if she does I'll be here don't worry"

I get up and walk into the bathroom again locking the door behind me, I could feel my hair was going to move out of its place, and like I said the last thing I want right now is for Violet to see my missing eye.

finally, after I finish with my side bangs I get out of the bathroom to see her picking at her nail polish

"What's the matter?" I asked

"You killed her didn't you?"

                                   TOMS POV

I'd been out here for who knows how long now, still nothing and it was driving me absolutely insane but I mean I'd be even more insane to not look for her she needs me right now I know it.

When I get close to a tree I see her lying against it crying softly to herself.

I get closer to her making sure she doesn't notice me to make sure she doesn't run away again. Then at the right moment, I grab her and pull her in my arms tightly.

"Please- just stay for a bit this time?" I say softly as she continues to cry

"Tom- Please I didn't mean to hurt her If you love her it's fine but I don't understand what I've become-" She sobbed

"The girl is Bill's girlfriend I haven't felt love ever since you left me Elora"
" I know you feel hungry I understand why you lunged at her like that don't beat yourself up about it" I sighed feeling her soft brown hair glide against my fingertips

She stops crying after 4 or so minutes as she pulls away from my chest I hold her tighter just so that she won't try to run off.

"I don't know what to do Tom- I feel hungry but I don't wanna hurt someone again-"

"Feed off of me" I offered as she looked at me in shock

"No- I can't," She said back

"Come on Elora do it," I said showing my clean wrist to her as she looked down at it hesitant to even put her mouth to it

"I can't-" She cried

I put my wrist closer to her face before she finally bit on it, It was more preferred for vampires to feed on humans but vampires feeding on vampires also works in a way the only disadvantage about it would be that it hurts way more for the vampire that is having blood taken from them but I don't mind if it means I'm helping her

I hold back on making any sound as painful as it was

But it's all alright now that she's here

the only thing I have left to do is to kill him he's caused so much suffering but at the same time should I be upset? I mean she's in my arms again but at the same time, it's her that's suffering now with this curse as well.

                             VIOLETS POV

"No-..." Bill paused trying to think of what to say but I know it all

"I saw it Bill" I responded

Bill could only shake his head he remained calm but at the same time I could almost sense all of the thoughts running through his head

"What could you have seen if it never happened?" He said

"You called Tom after crying to him as she was laying unconscious in your arms you were full of her blood and it's obvious you were the one that caused it"

Bill stared into my eyes," It's not-"

"Then what it is" I say cutting him off

"you knew, you knew so why would you act so comfortable in my presence? You knew so why would you even stay in my vision why aren't you running at this very moment because that same ability I used to save you killed her"

something about him has changed and I wish I was able to experience the Bill I first met, to put it in words I wish there was a way to forget what he's done because even if I want to ignore it I know that this is how he's always been and there's no way to hide it there's no way to erase

his sins