I swear I-I never wanted to trap a butterfly
It's all my fault
shards of ceramic scattered in disarray
It's so surreal
scattered soil, cautious footsteps
an unsettling sight, distorted situation
The roots' exposedI have no right to cry
After all
I broke your heart
didn't I?I tried to get past the past, but
all I know is loss
all I do is grieve
All I hear is ambient noise
Ringing through my head
all I know is violence
all I do is parkourAnd avoid the feeling
Checked out
found the exit
and chose
To grieve you today
Cause I can't bare the thought of losing you sometime down the road
When you hate me
And regret me
and we'll be screaming about all your wasted timeI can't be what you want me to be
And I know I'm not what you need
I don't know the girl in your head
But I know she's a concept I can't complete
And you can't handle the girl I amI swear I never, I never wanted to trap a butterfly
Please, believe me
I swear it wasn't my intention
I didn't mean anything by it
I only wanted to escape
For a moment
See all the colors before I go blind
No worries, no responsibilities
Fill my lungs at the top of the worldRunning through
crowded places
And you grab my hand
before
I
get
hit
by
speeding
carsI don't understand
how did you get me laughingIt must've been the caffeine
For a moment
the geranium almost thrivedNow I'm too old to be
Drinking alone at noon
Pretty pink drinks
As pretty as Dianthus in spring
Is that what you meant
When you were explaining your feelings?Well, the bartender is adorable
But I can't bare to look at brown eyes full of pity
Like they can see right through meI swear I-I never, I never wanted to trap a butterfly
So I leave
And
Speeding
cars
are
honking
loud and angry
almost hit me
Hilarious
If only
then I could
finally escape
and I can
finally feel...
Nevermind
It doesn't matterPoison slips into the cracks and crevices
Under the skin
Down the throat
Into the lungs
Behind the ribs
Irreversible structural damage
nectar of dissolution
the heart disintegratesI swear I never wanted to kill a butterfly
Venus flytrap
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BINABASA MO ANG
To The Bone: Poems of Resigned Reality
Poetrya collection of poems that explore themes of sadness and resignation.