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WARNINGS: smut, alcohol, drugs, explicit language, panic attacks / anxiety, murder, crime, suicide
Noah Sebastian x Fem!Reader
I was lost, but now I'm found
Under the lights and in the sounds
So let us sing and sing it loud
That we're...
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EDITED 09-03-24
NOAH
I wonder how How can it be that two souls live beneath my chest? I wander on Through the snowfall And the firestorm
One week passed.
I had resorted to stealing from a few homes, but the objects I took were worth nothing compared to the cost of Y/N's drugs. After selling everything, I only made 4.5k, barely enough to maintain my daily goal of 645; and I was desperately trying to come up with another scheme to earn more cash. With my stolen money in hand, I went to one of D's associates, feeling a surge of anger at the smug grin on his face as he greedily snatched the envelope from my grasp.
'Having fun Sebastian? Surprised you even made this much yourself.'It took everything in me to walk away without bashing his fucking face in.
As each day passed I was being eaten alive by guilt, and I could barely look at Y/N. She noticed the shift in my behaviour, persistently asking me what was wrong and if she had done something.
'Nothing,' I would say.
'Just stressed,' I would say.
Our final night together was the night I stole her medication. As she held me in her arms, drifting off into a peaceful slumber, I couldn't bring myself to close my eyes. Instead, I quietly cried while she slept, unaware of the lies that lay next to her.
The next morning, I lied and said I would sleep in the spare bedroom across the hall. The expression on her face was heart-wrenching.
'Oh, I'm sorry if I made you uncomfortable. I know that the nightmares are hard to deal with.' She had said, her eyes falling briefly before she attempted to hide her expression with a smile.
My heart yearned at her words, wanting to hold her against my chest, ready to block out all the evil in the world if it meant protecting her. It wasn't the nightmares that pushed me away, it was myself.
'I don't want to invade your space more than I already am.' I responded.
I watched her take her pills when she did, my chest clenching in shame with every sip of water that followed the lies.
I wish I wasn't afraid of The haunted valley
The boys watched the remorse control me as I began to shut off the world, secluding myself from Y/N, and them.
I wish I wasn't a failure That nobody needs
"Noah?"
In the depths of my mind, I'm lost and confined A question gnaws at my core; I can't deny
