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WARNINGS: smut, alcohol, drugs, explicit language, panic attacks / anxiety, murder, crime, suicide
Noah Sebastian x Fem!Reader
I was lost, but now I'm found
Under the lights and in the sounds
So let us sing and sing it loud
That we're...
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IMPORTANT AUTHORS NOTE: This chapter is not new to the story yet. I have edited all the chapters and therefore have cut some into different parts, since I felt that they were too long. Now, the longest chapter is 6k words rather than 10k lol. I have changed some things in the story / edited all the chapters, so this chapter, 10, and 11, are not new new to the story. But I encourage you to re-read if you have already read this story so far!! If you're new, welcome, and I hope you're enjoying this world I've created thus far <3
EDITED 09-03-24
Y/N
Beneath the covers of my bed, I curled into a ball with my knees pulled up to my chest. Soft sobs escaped me as I tried to control my emotions, but they continued to overwhelm me. My breaths were heavy and ragged, and I coughed from the congestion caused by the tears staining my cheeks.
My mind was in turmoil, replaying everything that had happened. It would be easy to blame myself for Noah's decision, but how could I when I never considered the consequences of letting him into my life? On the other hand, I couldn't just overlook his actions; if I were a normal person, I would have kicked him out of my life already. But I was too wrapped up in him, unable to let go despite everything he had done.
I really was so naive, huh?
I wanted to trust Noah. I still trust Noah.
In the end, it was my own fault. Why did I put my trust in someone who had only recently entered my life? How long until that trust wears thin and breaks into an unfixable mess? As tears streamed down my face for Noah, my chest heaved with anxiety from my past. I made a promise to myself not to go back to wearing that deceitful mask or to let them find me again. Yet, here I was, completely exposed and easy to track. The dealer in the dark alley recognized the mask and knew the code.
"We live in a twilight world: And there are no friends at dusk."
I didn't recognize him, but I knew that he could link me back to those I ran from. They haven't worn the masquerade masks since I left.
I squeezed my eyes shut, the heat of my breath beginning to suffocate my body that lay beneath the covers of my duvet, shielding me from the world and all the problems within it.
"I'll See You At The Beginning, Friend."
I was going to be found, and it was going to be a mess.
If Kiean and Kade were about to be back in my life, I would need a saving grace.
As much as I didn't want to talk to Noah about anything, or forgive him, I needed him.
I told him that I would risk it all for him, and I've proven it; but would he risk it all for me?
You think that I can't see through it all? Who would walk back and risk it all for me now? Is this how breaking point sounds?
