Edge of madness||ZY

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And I love you with a love you don't know
Why doesn't your heart know my love for him?
Do you know that when I talk to you?
My heart flutters, open and joyful
Oh God, I love him so much
I have never loved anyone like I love you
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ZHAN POV

I am on the verge of madness, my friend, and between my madness for him and my madness for him, I am almost screaming in the streets like a deranged person, losing my mind.

In the echo of his voice is my refuge!

And in the orbs of his eyes is my torment.

I repeat !  In the orbs of his eyes is my torment!

And as revenge for myself, my friend, who left me and went to the other world!

You are under the dirt, my friend.

And next to me is your little child, whom, due to your mistrust, I left in my trust!

What should I do.. haikuan-ah?  I betrayed that trust

And revenge for myself and what this boy is doing to me!

Just because of his eyes!

His guilty eyes, which I hate to the point of abhorrence

I made myself your child's worst nightmare haikuan-ah?

I raised him as a robot, only moving on my orders.

And I slapped him and treated him harshly countless times!  I don't remember it

What is my fault ?  Your child is really stupid and calls me ~dad!  And I told him millions of times that I wasn't like that

Like a shadow walking behind me even in my dreams!  He fears me and does not dare to contradict me

Don't be angry with me.. haikuan-ah?  The sin is not my fault!!

It was entirely due to his kohl-gray eyes.

I was stroking his soft hair with my free hand and watching him while he slept... on my other hand

My ruby, he is My ruby.

I gently lifted his head up so he wouldn't wake up and went down to his lips and kissed him gently and softly

It wasn't my first kiss with him, today!!  I had kissed him many times while he was sleeping.

You don't realize!  How much I suffer with you, how much your tears hurt me... just like a dagger tearing me apart from the inside!

My little child.. She is in pain and crying because of me..!  I'm sorry.. so sorry.

Anyway, I won't let you live with me for a long time. You might be hurt when I leave you in a house far away from me.

But staying with me is a hundred times worse.

I can't deal with you as if nothing happened!  Your eyes are the reason