Jun Wu to Xie Lian (JunLian)

Xianle, my sweet Xianle

The day I met you on the bridge,

My heart fluttered.

I talked to you, and took you under my wing,

Yet the words that came out of your sweet little mouth

Tore my world apart.

The sepulcher I had built for myself

Broke down, like my fragile heart.

"Body in abyss, heart in paradise" is what you spoke to me

After that moment, that very moment I took you under my wing

You radiated so much potential

Like I had.

It felt as if I was staring at myself again,

Wu Yong, all over again.

The same mistakes I had repeated

And the naivete I held when I was 17-

Yet with you,

It seemed fitting.

You were young, and unaccomplished.

Yet each time I saw you, my heart seemed to grow redder for you.

800 years seemed to fly by you,

Yet all of my advances to you seemed to make you stronger.

I was jealous. I could never rebound like you, but you....

Your heart seemed to be stolen.

Why couldn't that be me?

In your eyes, I was an idol, yet Hua Cheng came along.

Why couldn't I be like your father?

Xianle, sweet Xianle,

You've walked so far in life,

Yet I lie here,

In the dirt,

Underneath Mt. Tonglu,

Banished from the heavens.

How is it with Hua Cheng? Does he treat you kindly?

Xianle, sweet Xianle,

Could we start over?

I wish to makeup for everything,

Yet deep down,

We could never be.

Mei Nianqing and I grew much closer than I ever thought possible,

But every time my eyes lay on him,

I think of Wu Yong.

I think of myself, Wu Yong.

I think of the times before I,

Mistakenly,

Murdered our friends.

I regret that.

Yet they live on my face,

Haunting, and bewitching me.

Xianle, sweet Xianle,

Check your parents graves,

I think they would appreciate that again.

Your mother would be proud.

So would your father.

Oh Xianle,

How I yearn to hug you.

Your body always seemed to perfectly fit within mine.

Xianle, oh Xianle,

Please come to see me.

You always seemed to smell as if you had run through an orchestra of flowers.

Your hair was always the color of dark chocolate,

And your eyes held a comforting warmth,

That had always pierced my soul.

They were a beautiful color,

Always seemingly honey.

Xianle, my dear Xianle,

I hold many feelings towards you,

Yet I wish to see you once more.

Xianle, oh dear Xianle,

Xie Lian, my dear Xie Lian,

Your name lives in my head,

As if it was a melody from a Guqin.

Xie Lian, my dear Xie Lian,

Please,

Let me caress your face once more.

Let me doze off into the warmth of your eyes,

And relive these complex feelings for you.

Xie Lian,

My dear Xie Lian,

My dear Xianle,

Can you hear me?

Let me love you once more,

Father or lover,

Let me love you once more,

And give me a chance to redeem myself.

Xie Lian,

My dear Xie Lian,

I love you.