Dear Diary - A collection of different Heartstopper diary entries

Something's up...

(tw: Self-harm mentions)

Tori's Diary (takes place: before Volume 1)

14/06 (14th June)

Something's up with Charlie.

I feel like I haven't seen him smile in.... ages. He's been locking himself in his room all evening almost everyday, he won't even come down for dinner. I don't know what's wrong but it must be something and I'd assume something at school but I wouldn't know.

He won't talk to me about it. And he usually tells me everything.

I know he doesn't have too many friends at school and isn't exactly too popular but I think something bad must have happened or keeps happening because he always comes home with tears streaks down his cheeks.

I just want to help him. But he won't let me. I try, I really do.

A couple of nights ago, I knocked on his door to maybe try to get him to talk about it but he didn't even respond at first. When I knocked again he just shouted at me to get out. Maybe he thought I was mum. Charlie has never gotten on that well with mum, especially since he came out to our parents so he probably just didn't want to talk to her. I should have said it was me. But I didn't because I'm not that smart.

(start of tw)

Yesterday morning, when we were just about to leave for school, I was on my way to the toilet and passed by Charlie's room. His door was slightly open and in the corner of my eye I saw blood stains on his carpet. Now I don't know exactly why but I have an idea of what it might be and I really don't want it to be true.

So, on the bus yesterday I was going to talk about it but Charlie just kept his headphones on and ignored me when I tried.

He has also always had a jumper on recently, even though it's basically summer and about 23 degrees outside but every time I ask he always just says he's cold. I know Charlie is the kind of person that is 'always cold' when it's even slightly mild but since it isn't I have a hard time believing him. And, along with the blood stains, it's also driving me to believe something is really wrong.

(end of tw)

I really want to help Charlie but I don't know what to do.

A/N: sorry this one was a bit depressing. I thought it would be cool to see how the bullying affected Charlie from Tori's perspective and how she wanted to help him but he wouldn't talk about it.

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