I quietly watch the sun sets, I wiped my tears and smile painfully. This sunset reminds me those happy moments with him. I chuckled bitterly.
"Bakit ba ako umiiyak?! Ako ang nagtapos sa kung anong meron kami, pero kung umakto ako parang ako 'yung iniwan" inis kong sabi at nagsimula ng maglakad pauwi.
Nang nasa kanto na ako ay natanaw ko ang pamilyar na tindig at likuran ng isang lalaki. Kumabog ng malakas ang dibdib ko habang palapit sa kanya.
A-Anong...?
Saktong paglapit ko ay ang pagharap niya sa akin.
"A-Ash" bulong ko sa pangalan niya.
"Long time no see, Fauzia" he said then smile. A fake one. Because I can see how much he's hurting right now–like me.
Seeing him again after how many months brings back some bittersweet memories. He still looks so good–still handsome as hell.
"What are you doing here?" i said, giving him my emotionless look as possible.
"I just came here to give you this" then he hand me an envelope. I sighed and tinanggap 'yon.
A letter. Binalik ko ang tingin sa kanya, damn, I miss him. Nag-iwas ako ng tingin at tumikhim.
"Alright, you can go" hindi ko na siya hinintay pa na magsalita, nagmadali agad akong pumunta sa bahay. Sinilip ko siya pagkapasok ko sa gate at nakita kong tumingin siya dito banda at ngumiti tsaka siya pumasok sa kotse niya at umalis.
Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko at tinignan ang sobre na iniabot niya. Pumunta na ako sa kwarto ko at ng masigurong walang papasok ay binuksan ko na 'yung sobre. There's a paper inside, nanginginig ko iyong binuksan.
Nanghina ako. Tuloy tuloy ang agos ng luha ko. Pilit kong tinahan ang sarili para mabasa ko ng maayos 'yung letter.
Greetings My Almost,
My almost love, in the silence of the night, your absence echoes louder than any words we've shared. In the space between what could have been and what will never be, I find myself longing for the touch of your hand, the warmth of your smile. But alas, we were destined to be ships passing in the night, our paths intertwined briefly, only to diverge into separate oceans. Though our story remains unfinished, know that you'll forever linger in the depths of my heart, a bittersweet reminder of a love that almost was.
sincerely,
Ashton Drake Monterde
I-Is he giving up? He gave up.
I cried and cried and cried and cried.
It hurts knowing that what we shared was just an almost.
He's my maybe, my biggest what if, my almost.
