The Tortured Poets Department Countdown

Old Habits Die Screaming

Verse #1:

I called you again

Just to hear your voice

Held captured in the answering machine

I wonder if you can see

How many times I've been calling

It's the millionth time

I changed my lock screen

Couldn't choose my favorite picture of you and me

You've probably had your's changed

Since our last week

Pre chorus:

It's been over a year now

Everyone says I should have you blocked on my phone

The idea of pushing that button

Chills me to the bone

Chorus:

It's hard to let you go

You're a part of my day

Out of all my worst habits

Thinking of you is the one I can't break

Your temple in my mind

Can't seem to crumble with time

Made out of gold and cade

It was made to stand forever

So I guess it'll stay

Verse #2:

I listen to our favorite songs and cry

Think about a time you brightened my sky

I'm still yours but you're not mine

Trapped by the chains of my past

See you soar

Must be nice

Not to be burdened anymore

Pre Chorus:

What once was love

Is now your fiction

But our past love

Is still my addiction

Chorus:

It's hard to let you go

You're a part of my day

Out of all my worst habits

Thinking of you is the one I can't break

Your temple in my mind

Can't seem to crumble with time

Made out of gold and cade

It was made to stand forever

So I guess it'll stay

Bridge:

I've tried to forget you

But i need you like a safetaynet

My very favorite life vest

Is filled with weights

Now I'm sinking into the dark blue depths

Cursing your name

I'm doing this for my own sanity

Got to kill this part of me

The sound was quite alarming

I'm used to quiet tears streaming

I guess

Old habits die screaming 

Outro:

The temple crumbled

You're number is blocked

The lock screen's changed

I'm working on forgetting your name 

When I think of you

I still come undone

But maybe one day

That'll no longer be the case

I hope that one day

Closure will come to stay

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This song is about struggling to get over someone who was once so important and relevant to your life that it's impossible to let go.

So this is the end of the TTPD Countdown. There's a bar across my street and they're playing YBWM. Not relevant but I thought you should know. People screaming Taylor Swift always makes me happy. Anyway, thank you all so much for joining me on this insane journey through the TTPD random mysterious line/lyrics. I don't know. I'm sleep deprived, sorry. Less than 24 hours (it's 1:31 for me rn, ET) until the torture ends and TTPD get released (ironic I know). 

I had a better idea for this but I should go sleep instead. Sometime tomorrow I will be publishing the final chapter of this book, which is pretty much just me talking about the process of writing these songs and some cut our lyrics and verses, featuring my messy handwriting. Check that out if you want to.

Thank you for joining me in the countdown!

Love,

Crystal

P.S. I would like to apologize to Cade, no that was not a typo, the reference to Clara came so easily and fit in so well and I tried really really hard to find a way to fit you in, and cade rhymes with jade and that was the best I could do, I'm so sorry :'( 

Oh I remember you driving to my house in the middle of the night-

I NEED SLEEP