bleed

free

appo , nan evideyo kettitunde manassilullathe ezhuthiyal aa bharam avideyo sookshiche vechathe pole yannethe appo nan ivide vekette ente bharam okke?

korch nallayi nattil jeeviknu , sathyam paranjal 6+ varshamayi and ippozhane ulagham korchokke thiriyunnathe 

nan anti romantic and emotionless annennan prabhula abiprayam but actually ente emotional reflex bayagara weak anenne ullu . inne thonnende feeling enike nalleyo allenkil matennalleyo aanne thonnuka just like that ente friendsine oke 5 masathine shesham allenkil oru varshathine sheshama nan miss cheyya , party nadannal kore masangellke sheshema enike aaaa wooow enne thonnu ..... yentho evideyo oru nut loose aaythe pole alle? 

ithe nan adutha ariyunnatha actually 

so for the past 4 years enike friends onnumilla athinum monne nan valiya gang head okke ayirunnnu ella miss markum ariyunna valiya thalapathi pinne nan frienshipil oru try nadathi athum oru odukatha try , ithe palliyal enike jeevithathil oru malayali yum aayi bandham undavumenne thonnunnilla karanam anike malayaleeesine valiya ishttam illa athondane 4 varshum 'friend free' aayi nadannathum .ente plus one life kazhinje plus two vilane nan ente so called friendsine friendsaayi pariganichathe the 'late reflex' and anne promise cheythatha , aver engaanum enne chadichal iniyoru trust biuld up cheyyanum onnum enike yogyatha illanne .

Aver enne cheat cheythittonnumilla but enike..... palappozham vibe okkathethu pole aver pareenna palathum enike ishtayirunnilla and from the early days muthal thenne nan ee school onne theernnal enne prarthikkan thudangi nah averode ithe orikkalum nan mention cheythittilla , ithittingelle okke nattil evideyenkil kande muttumello pinne engeneyo ellarum ammayinte mola yi theerugayum cheyyum pinne enthine nan aayitte chumma oru thalle vekunne?

appo plus two kazhinknju oru 2 masam kazhinju nan miss cheyyan thudangi , groupil athyavishyam cringe ayathoke ittu avere sugupikkanne vijarichu but.....no replay . Nammell plan cheytha oru sthaltheke nan sprayum adiche kathirikkumbol 'nan verunilla ' athum poranjitte chilar 'ghosted completely' . adipoli

inne nan ulla amsham sneham trustum ellam kadalil ozhukkan pova , ee pozha , kadal prethyekich vellam athe ente weakness aanne enike bayengara ishttama ee vellethine ozhukke  kannan karanam orikkal mungi merikkan poyatha athe kanda ente cousinne vellam pinne pedi yayirunnu pakshe enike yentho jeevatham vereyoru perspective thannathe pole . Ente schoolil eduthe oru pozha yunde nan palappozham 'friend free' aaya samayathe kandatha pakshe friends undaya shesham 2 varshathil 2nde prayishyame kandullu and that was very sad . 

Eniyum nan pokum aa pozhayilekum , malayilekum vernnore veri avide veche kannam enike ulllu thoranne smasarakika shits onnum work avoola athyavishyam mathiloke chadunna orall annenkil ente koode koodikko anike ninte lifeil oru manni polum thalpariyam illa ninte autobiographinte adyatha chatta polum eniku venda ninte past yenthooo ayikotte kudumbam eethooo ayikotta , korche thalathirinjathannel athreykum nallathe .

yennode ente therapist parenjathe ' manasse thornne samsarikkan oru friend venam ' ennane but thats not my case , I dont give damn about this 'manasse' just live , nalleyum marikkam so today let me go , just let me fly beyond the horizon to somewhere so faar very faar from the people who knows me .