a thought of the past

acquaintance

i'm in love with the past you more than you yourself
went and threw up all our memories up on a shelf
although i guess i'm happy that you've went and changed
part of me still wishes for everything to still be the same

now we're so far apart, not connected by bond
we're just united by our memories 'fore everything went wrong
"maybe in a universe" that shit makes me sad
cuz god couldn't even grant the one wish that i had

rome'll never restore to its former glory
so neither will we, guess that's the end of our story
guess we've moved on from our codependence on each other
and that's two lies, one of them knowing that i know that you had brothers

and sisters that you'd be willing to talk to everyday
waiting for my turn, just to realise it never came
but i don't own you, so i can't be super possessive
felt like everyday i had my insecurities tested

was just glad for any attention at all
was such a loser, had to climb back up right after the fall
such a big impact, in such little time
left a crater on my mind, cuz you were one of a kind

need to fill the hole now, because you never cared
nearly as much as me, so don't expect me to be there

and i wish you would look at me...
the way i looked at you...
enjoy it while it lasts, cuz there's nothing we can doooo...

and in a sense, i'm kinda glad it's withering awayyy
just need to learn, to leave the past in the past
and i surely hope i move on from you someday...