The Day You Said Goodbye

Fourth Page

[Leonel Sebastian Ferrer POV]

It was a rainy night, what should I do right? Walking lonely soaked by the rain. Hindi maipag-kakaila kung hindi man ako gustuhin ng mga tao.

My mom treated me like a dog, my dad always beating me up when I was a kid, my ex cheated on me with my only friend, my sister got raped in front of me and I can't do anything about it.

What could the possibly great, I have done? It's none because I am useless the way I am.

"You're nothing but a worthless dog!" Said by my mom, Why wouldn't you treat me as your own son?

"I cheated! And I cheated with your bestfriend!" My world collapsed, pati ba naman ang babaeng mahal ko?

"Your not worthy to handle our family business!" Said by my dad that he let my forster brother take care of our company.

"I think moving to a new country will fix me." Naiisip ko ring mag-ibang bansa, I didn't belong here! They say it's more fun in the Philippines. Then why all the people here are letting me down and why I am becoming no one else?

Nagsisisi parin ako dahil gusto kong maibalik lahat ng aking nakaraan. I like my mom spoiling me with toys, I like my dad driving me around the community, I like how my girlfriend treats me like I am not treated before.

Nobody knows how I cry myself to sleep at night, no one knows how I begged God to remove all the pain I am feeling. No one knows how I hated myself for being me. No one knows how I take their simple jokes as insults, no one knows how many times I wish to just disappear, no one knows how wet my notebooks after crying what i'm supposed to write, no one knows I am struggling, no one knows how I overthink of being betrayed, no one knows how scared I am to be unloved and no one knows how messed I become.

Why do people become eager to get someone down? Hindi ba dapat tayong lahat ay nagtutulungan? Pero bakit nila ako pinagtutulungan? Why are they all like this to me? I didn't deserve this, I didn't.

Only few of them left, tinalikuran ako ng mundo at sarili ko lang ang kakampi ko. No one else is there for me and especially never.

"Alam mo pinaka mahirap saken ngayon?" I said while tears are dropping in my face.

"I want to hug you longer but I can't, mas pinili mo siya kaysa sa akin!"

Stab me with a knife, wala na akong pakealam kung masaktan o mamatay man ako.

I am the black sheep of the house even though I worked hard. At the age of eleven I started working for a small cafeteria, almost 5 years na ako sa cafe na iyon. Every time I go to that coffee shop I feel alive serving people and make them relax.

"Masipag ka, at matalino! Why won't you be my forster son since wala naman akong anak? Leonel?" Sabi ng aking amo na siyang nagpangiti saakin.

Gumawa ako ng contract that my biological parent's signed that Mr. Nakamura will be my father for the rest of my life. And I will not be a Lopez anymore but I am officially belongs to the Ferrer family.

My life went good sa kamay ng aking ama, Mr. Nakamura is a successful businessman that even beats the company of my biological father. Of course we intend to beat them business is business, I do manage the company at the very young age at sa dating cafeteria na pinag tratrabahuan ko. Saakin na nakapangalan.

"Hey Seb! Watch out for the ball, it may hit your beautiful face!" Sabi ni Roderick with his insulting ugly face.

He is one of the best ace in our community, but I am the top 1 he is just the top 2. He envy me for the fame and also for the spotlight.